i want him in my pocket.

yes. i`ve been dreading these past few weeks. i mean, especially during the holidays, that i WANT school.

but then, since it`s the last day of the holiday, and the heartthrob is easing away as the clock ticks its way to school time, and there`s this thought that destroyed this beautiful caricature ; i forgot to close the toilet seat this morning. =0
hence, the real story is HOMEWORK.*thousands of different screams are featured in the background of this word.

i forgot where i put them. i mean, seriously, english and malay homework. no big deal. but where are you, you son of a bish, waste of fakeng time.

so, let us put this aside and breath. *inhale. don`t forget to exhale, dammit.

last two nights, malam jumat, my family held a tahlil/doa selamat for the dead. *a moment of silent, please. both of my grandfathers and grandmother. may you three be in peace. amin.
i wasn`t really interested in all the cookings, the setting ups, the cucul, the orang thailand yang usai kem and other fo'shiznits. i cared for sii-mah-faken-hots. <-- fak, bunyi macam cool, skalinya di eja, cawir usulnya.

sii-mah-faken-hots adalah cousin tiri ku dan dia dikategorikan sebagai salah satu makhluk tuhan yang paling hangat. *fak, angau.

HE`S PERFECT! XDDD
vAiE bOiiS, y0u Da HoTz. aHaKzZ.

my cousins banyak yang datang. but sii-mah-faken-hots yang paling perfect. sii-oh-cawer-but-okay was cute too. but ya kaling. (--,") as in hitam. HAHA. sii-emo-tapi-inda pun cute but he`s tall and kaling.

so i broke out a convo with sii-mah-faken-hots punya sister, tiqs.

Tiqs : sapa kau cari, ki?
me : diam, bah, baie. aku mencari abang mu bah, baie.
Tiqs : abang ku? apa kau mau buat arah ya, ki?
me : ehh, shaddap you. abang mu hot wah, baie. baie bah abang mu atu.
Tiqs : abang ku baie? (inda ya pandai paham.)
me : abang mu baie sal ya hot bah, baie.
josh : eh, akii, mama mu...
me : anak baie lari tah ko bah. kan meliat anak baie orang lain pun inda dapat kah, baie? mati tah wah, baie.
(sorry for the misusage of words guys. he was too hot. got me haywired. XPP)

oh yeah! sii-exotic asked me a question about snickers and mars. she told me to pick which one`s better than the other. honestly, babe, i think both of them taste the same what. the only thing is i`m addicted to snickers more than mars. HEHE.

sii damiit<3
i miss you, you oh so cute thing you. X3

thoughts been flying through my head again. now thoughts with words and pictures. like weeeee. *clears throat. words like 'so how will sii damiit<3 look like after the holiday?', 'has he grown any taller?', 'will i see him first tomorrow morning?' or the usual 'baie, meliat mua sii haiseh dgn her half-sized twin, harisah. and their half-blood cousin, ivy. wonder if she got a new haircut?'

told josh about sii-foklen, ehex. and this was our short convo =




josh10 says:
he WHAT?

jakee // thirteen says:
likes me.

josh10 says:
mun ya propose, cana?

jakee // thirteen says:
DULI! REJECT!

jakee // thirteen says:
sii foklen cala hantap.

jakee // thirteen says:
baik plg ku kawin dgn teacher yang fakety fak fak blaaah. (guess who?)

josh10 says:
jan catu ehh.

josh10 says:
sabar. sabar. ingat tuhan.

jakee // thirteen says:
jangantah ko alim ani, dang.

josh10 says:
mbaaah. _l_

jakee // forfor says:
i dont want to like him.

jakee // forfor says:
i will NEVER like him. NEVER!

jakee // forfor says:
cuz i love sii damiit. <-- ooh! a confession! call the press!

jakee // forfor says:
baie.

josh10 says:
just... hold on.

jakee // forfor says:
whaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiii?

jakee // forfor says:
*weeps gayishly.

josh10 says:
okaaay. mental.

josh10 says:
cemana usul poklen atu? Hot?

jakee // forfor says:
he has a red bush on his head.

jakee // forfor says:
sexay, eyy?

josh10 says:
-___-"

josh10 says:
okaaay.

josh10 says:
pheeeeewiiiiit.

jakee // forfor says:
gilerz. hotz ehh. turned on ku.

josh10 says:
you made a good point.

jakee // forfor says:
yeahh. like daaa~

josh10 says:
i don`t want my nephews and nieces to have a red bush on their heads!

josh10 says:
i mean, its better for our family to have bulu kaki tabal than red bushes on our heads.

josh10 says:
='0

jakee // forfor says:
kan mati gila baie.



wow. look at the time. 1:02 in the morning. and here i am, still awake, updating my blog, chatting to tiqz and thinking of sii damiit.

damiit<33
loves you.
:)

good morning and sweet dreams.

the awesomely fucking end.

; jakee.