i gonna make this real.

i`ve been tagged by cha, aka sii-stare-a-lot.

1. put your mp3, windows player, etc on shuffle.
2. for each question press the next button to get your answer.
3. you must write that song name down on matter how silly it sounds.
4. put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. tag 6 people.


1. are you a male or female?
` baby boy - beyonce feat sean paul. [baiee]

2. describe yourself.
` glamorous - fergie. [awesomee. :)]

3. what do you feel when they`re around you?
` hot and cold - katy perry.

4. describe your current relationship.
` lets get it started - black eyed peas. [the hell?]

5. where would you like to be now?
` 7mins in heaven - fall out boy. [-____-"]

6. how do you feel about love?
` feel good inc - gorillaz. [manada, baie. aku heartbroken ni.]

7. whats your life like?
` lollipop - lil jon feat static. [PAKAA!]

8. What would you ask if you had only one wish?
` roses - outkast. [THE HELL?]

9. say something wise.
` lying is lie most fun a girl can have with out taking of her clothes - panic! at the disco. [HAHAH. VERY WISE.]

10. if someone says 'is this okay?', you say
` what you got - colby o donnis feat akon.

11. How would you describe yourself?
` crazy in love - beyonce feat jay-z. [heart broken. :(]

12. what do you like in a guy/girl?
` don`t stay - linkin park. [BAIE.]

13. How do you feel today?
` naughty girl - beyonce. [damn you song]

14. What is your life purpose?
` burnin up - jonas brothers. [oh yeaaaahh, bebehh.]

15. What is your motto?
` billie jean - michael jackson. [i lost myself]

16. What do your friends think of you?
` low - flo-rida [madapaka]

17. What do you think of your parents?
` dangerous - akon feat kardinal offishal. [true. true.]

18. What do you think about very often?
` throw it on me - timbaland feat the hives. [im lost again.]

19. What is 2+2?
` the carpal tunnel of love - fall out boy. [awesome. i never knew that.]

20. what do you think about your bestfriend?
` one and only - timbaland feat fall out boy.

21. What do you think of the person you like?
` thnks fr the mmrs - fall out boy. [i love you. :(]

22. What is your life story?
` numb - linkin park [yeah. Especially my feet]

23. What do you want to be when you grow up?
` decoy - paramore. [haha. baie.]

24. What do you think of when yet see the person you like?
` what happened to us? - hoobastank. [seriously, yes. i do.]

25. What will you dance at your wedding?
` dance, dance. - fall out boy. [OH YEAH!]

25. What will they play at your funeral?
` decode - paramore.

26. What is your hobby/interest?
` scream - keri hilson feat timbaland.

27. What is your biggest fear?
` mama - my chemical romance. [HAHA.]

i tag
zim
ze
farah
fateen
and two other random people. (:

gayishly done!

♥jakee.

stripped open a leprachaun, babyyy.

untuk khaliilah dolrani aka the flying dutchman, chemistry was ayt, babyy. kesajukan ku tadi. baik tah inda turn on memikirkan sal si cousin, tau inda panas audi atu. :P

EHH, TODAY I AM EXACTLY SEVENTEEN YEARS, TEN DAYS, TWO HUNDRED AND FORTY HOURS AND THIRTEEN MINS.

handal maths aku ane. 8) and inda, khal. time aku buat ane aku inda kerasukan. kelaparan ada pulang.

NO MORE EXAMS!
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

so, good luck to sii phise aka lauk, sii damiit and people taking bio. thursday last kamu. baca doa. makan kismis. jangan tekamih di seluar. (Y)

the awesomely cool end.

♥jakee.

it maybe just my thoughts.

O LEVEL HABIS!

SCREW YOU, SCHOOL! ;P

I`m so freakin happy. :|

the awesomely cool end.

♥jakee.

they want people`s balls for brunch.

i`ll be updating about the coolness of this week. too long to post. *yawns.

it`s ten minutes coming to 12.30pm. again, i`m still up. trying to wake sii fhise aka lauk up. again. for the second time. hope he wakes up. so tired. fatigue. kill him if he doesn`t. *gayish glare.

i kinda miss sii damiit today. =/ i don`t know why he keeps on popping into my head these few days. his picture in the name baka baru, very CUTE. (:

rie, baby. i`ll be missing your gay yet so-hard-rocking-brain-causing-spasm blog. i love you. <3

bah. atu tah saja.

the awesomely boring end.

♥jakee.

unknown love bimbomatic.

sii phise aka lauk tidur awal ane.
suruhnya ku mc after his 20mins nap. maseh inda mau bangun ah. :|
tidur mati tah tu. ish ish.

awu ehh. hari ane, sii gay cousin ya panya wrist kana bandaged/wrap up. he said he sprained it. -_-" he ain`t so manly after all. HAHA. get well soooooon, beloved cousin. (:

maseh inda mau bangun sii phise ahh. =.=

aku plang yang mau tidur ane. ishhhh.

the awesomely annoying end.

♥jakee.

do you know you`re short?

aku JOBLESS berabis.
0_0"

tomorrow, physics paper.totally not prepared. like seriously.

tadi, additional maths paper 1. boo that paper. (N) mati inda kali ku pass paper ane. i think i just doodled on the paper. =.=" there were some questions i know how to do but yang payah kan mati atu (N). ada some of my friends yang give up dah, keluar awal. boring tah dorang kan menunggu tu.

before the exam started, i hung out at the library with my gay do0ders. which included sii exotic, sii freaky-too-much and sii-stare-a-lot. in other words, ze, nisa and cha. i lopxx me bebehzz. mwahxx.
then, when it was time to go into the auditorium, i had to go to the place yang ada cabinet simpan bag. when i was busy putting out my stationary out of my bag, which was really on the top shelf, ada this voice in my back yang said, "duh." that voice made my bulu roma meremang. first time ku tu ah, ada feeling catu. i know i used to like him and all, but seriously, our problem never ended since last year dah. i kinda miss him. :( but then, he is better off with the girl he loves. he`s still really cute though. xD
but the feeling yang i had goosebumps atu seriously shocked me. i think i need a new name for him. his old nick is sooooo obvious.

aku tired and mengantuk. -_-

the awesomely tiring end.

♥jakee.

throw all your cocaine away.

HELLO!

since i`m jobless now, i`m gonna post what i did on my birthday.

I woke up at 5.30am that day. was rather overwhelmed. antah napa ya. but i feel really gay + sad. i checked my phone and there were birthday greetings sent by both family and friends via MSN and SMS. sorry. I didn`t reply. my credit was rather low. but i really appreciate it. xp

so i got ready to school and went down to have breakfast. my family were downstairs and were singing the usual birthday song. my dad gave my $$$ and my mum gave me a hug. she`ll give me a present nanti. but thanks youuu. (:

when i came to school, naz, zimah, and irma, were there already. we went straight to get a netball ball and played a few hoops at the netball court yang outside. so we played for an hour til tiqah arrived. then, nisa came out of nowhere. we talked bout the upcoming netball tournament and exploreventure, which are coming in the next two weeks. after that, we all broke off. i went with naz and irma to the library, tiqah and zimah went to their class. so just memalui di library. not studying and being all boring. i was greeted by some other friends. so the usual school life was back intact at that time so it was boringboringboring.

when i got home, i was watching astro the whole day. i received more greeting messages. at night, my dad bought me, my mom, brother and sister arah millenium. fortunately for us, they were having BBQ buffet that night. it cost $25.50 seorang. worth it lah. cool cool. i like the tiramisu cake. =9

that night, i was just counting the hours. was chatting with si fhise aka lauk. makin lame eh ya ane. but hey, at least i made a friend on my birthday. (: thanks.

then, five minutes before 8th november ended, phise sang me his oh-so-famous birthday song. this time i didn`t get disconnected. ^^

so, i again i wanna thank to all the people who managed to cheer up my day and make my birthday a superb day ever.

♥
my god bless y`all.
;)

the awesomely cool end.

♥jakee.

you never thought it would be in your knickers.

again. i wanna remind my self.

i am TUJOH BELAS years old now.
tuaaaaaaaaaaaa. =/

but somehow, i feel cool jua. 8D

8th november 2008 was the date where i celebrated my seventeenth birthday. i am grateful and also thankful to those who had greeted me on that date. i am flattered. you guys are truly my friends.

Fated. Zimah. Natalie. Han. Adly. Phise lauk. Rabs. Farah. Muney. Amp Hanisah. Shar. Amal N. JeeJee. Nina. Fayz. Dee. Faie. Nisa. Hazzie. Tiqz. Buzz. Riku. Cha. Khairun. Jeemshah. Khal. Kapek. Christy. Nadia. Fateen. Zaty A. Naz. Irma. Pajin. Remmy. Khai. Aini. Jon. Aishah. Amal Amad. Herny. Nisah. Wilson. Aqil. Zirah. Mona. Jimmy. My family, which includes my mom, dad, uncles and auntys. And the friendster people.

THANK YOU!

i love kamu semua. <33 *gay moment.

the awesomely touchy end.

♥jakee.

let`s take those arses and whip em up.

this is so going to be random.

i feel like slapping your face and punching you like a thousand times, ahmad rifaie, si gay cousin.

hmm. i wonder why i`m feeling really gay malam ane. '-_-
must have been the chocolates.

the awesomely random end.

♥jakee.

AHAHAH.

FIVE MINUTES TO GO BEFORE THE END OF 8TH NOVEMBER! :D

so, my dignity lost his virginity.

aku GAY awal ane.

imissyouohsidamiit.

the awesomely gay end.

♥jakee.

i`m hungry for filet.

atu waaaah. lauk aka fish,

fish: okay, birthday girl. i sing birthday song for you.
me: ohh. bah.
fish: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO...

then, i got disconnected.

me: ish ish. i got dc starting ko nyanyi.
fish: aiii. i`m not that bad.
me: eh. okay jua. bah. dapat join p2f tu.
fish: awuuu. VOTE FOR LAUUUK!
me: ahaha. cool. (Y)

well, i kinda changed most of what we said in the conversation. but it was something like this.

jobless much.

the awesomely cool end.

♥jakee.

popped an eye socket

nick name MSN si rabs awal ane is
rabs; happy birthday kim rapist. (L)


bangga ku ehh. 8D
loves you, rabs. <33
nanti ku dush kau. (:

the awesomely tiring end.

♥jakee.

smirking between the toilet bowl.

AKU TUJOH BELAS. :DD

it`s 2.30am and i`m still not asleep. i`m just curious and thinking of what will happen next during the school hours. *yawns.

the awesomely fucking end.

♥jakee.

take it all awaaaaay.

haaaaappy birthdaaaaay to meeee! (:

succulent seventeen, babyy!

here`s something i should share.

here is a little something that i made for my mother. it`s a short composition that i made for my mother last year. corny but i still wanna post it here.

Mother Knows Best.

As the eldest in the family, i am spoiled by my father. I hang out with my father most of the time. That is why i am a hothead and rude at times. My father is a nice and understanding ma but when it came to teenage problem, it was hard to tell. My mother was there for me. Eventhough i was rude a couple of times to her, she would stay and listen to my problems. My mother is the most understanding person in the world. No one can beat one mothers love.
When i have problems, she would pull out a chair and listen. Like when i faced problems at school about getting bullied and why i am flunking in class. She told me to work harder in class and be strong when bullied. For me, it was an embarassment, called to the principals office with the bullys, to shake hands and apologize to me infront of my mother. I was angry at first but when things started to get along, i agreed with her action.
Besides school problems, there is one problem that most teenage girls do not discuss with their father, which is puberty. When i had my first period, i did not know what to do. Even my father did not know what to do (big mistake for telling my father instead of my mother first.) my mother took care of me like i was a jewel she treasured. My mother told me helpful advice. She made me herb medicine (which i dislike greatly) so i could not feel tired and sore. Indeed she knew what the right thing to do.
Last but not least, my friendship and relationship problems. When my friend was told to move out of the school, i was upset. My friend and i were close and i was about to lose her. I told my mother about it and told me life goes on with or without a friend and she advised me to find a new friend. I neglected her idea. In the end, my friend and i fought and we never spoke to each other again. Or when i had my first breakup with my first boyfriend. I did not tell my mother at first but my mother could tell when i had a problem. I looked depressed about something. So my mother bought me shopping to cheer me up. It managed to improve my mood. Finally, i opened up to her and she listened. My mother told me to believe in what had happened and what`s past was in the past. I thought about it and told myself to move on.
It proved indeed that mother knows best for their daughter and son. No matter how many friends a person has or what organization they belong to, it cannot replace the love and understanding of a mother. A person can survive without a friend but can a person survive without a mother? Think about it.

touchy but yeah. I love my mother. oh yeah. For this compo, i got 35 out of 40 marks. AHAHA.
:DD

mom♥

♥jakee.

ma mama whoopin asses.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO

HJH DAYANG HJ OMAR AKA MY BELOVED MOTHER.♥

i love you, mum. hope for your wisdom to outgrow itself to more luxurious level. always a sagacious person at times when we need comfort. we all love you.

from me, nurul aleefah hakymah, brother, abdul wafiy wafiuddin and sisters, nurul aimi hamizah and nurul aniqah hazimah. not to mention, the whole family, from both sides. we bid you good luck and happiness forever and ever.

♥jakee.

never push around a meatball on a spagetti.

as you can see, for the past few weeks i`ve been perplexing myself with feelings that are unknown to me. well, i can`t really say unknow. let`s just say 'old feelings.'
i`ve been planting my old feelings back in my heart. i don`t know how i recovered them, but it hurts. especially when you know he got who he loves and i`m still a bummer who wishes for world gay humanity.
i`m confused.
at first, i thought that maybe it`s just a part of the recovery that i`ve been wanting these months. i wanted to get over him. i got over him. but he soon found his way back to my heart.
i know, i talked about alot of guys. he`s one of those guys, too. but he made the most dents in my heart. i can`t say his name cuz it won`t be proper and i don`t wanna ruin the friendship that we rebuild these few months.
I did mention in the past posts, that i don`t know if i really have those feelings. But i do know that i miss him.
he is very dear to me. and he will never realise it. cuz he has a person he loves. he won`t give a damn any other person who loves him. it`s always about who he loves.
this is heartbreaking. i don`t wanna like him. but he keeps interfering with my life, that it makes me so into him. again.
i just find him so perfect. not adorable. never attractive. handsome is a sin for him. but likeable, yes. i can`t stop thinking about you.
god. i still like his chest. *sigh.

again, i hope he`s not reading this. but i think he`s not. he ain`t got a blog, anyways.

i miss you.

the awesomely solemn end.

♥jakee.

i`ll be blessed.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO

FATIMAH AL-ZAHARA AKA FATED!

I love you, darling. ;D Hope my birthday greeting didn`t disturb your sleep. have an awesome succulent seventeen!

♥jakee.

he wanted his fate delivered with his left kidney.

have you ever had the feeling that the person you love is so close to you, that he`s there, infront of you, but yet, you can`t reach out for him cuz he can`t be yours?

i just had a thought that maybe i`m in that situation. i won`t mention who. but let`s just hope, that if he`s reading this, he won`t notice that i`m talking about him. <-- please! please, i`m not talking about you!

i`ve liked him for a very long time. i don`t know how i feel about him now, but i do miss him. i`m just confused. perplexed. it`s like i know he`s there, but he`s not there for me all the time. he`ll just appear and disappear whenever he wants. i know he knows that i have feelings for him. but i think it`s human nature to just ignore. the guy that i like sort of changed through all these years. i changed too. but most of the me i have now, is still here. <-- shit, i don`t know what i`m talking about.

he`s not attractive, i have to admit it. but i find him bloody likeable. i don`t like his height. he sort of have this thing on his face that always says 'never will be yours.' shit. i hate this.

i admit, sometimes it hurts. seeing someone you love, with the person he loves. i don`t envy anybody. i shouldn`t. but human nature is always there, to bring out the scam, break my heart and all.

i like his chest. (:

this is not a confession, i think. eurgghh. i don`t like him. i just miss him.

the awesomely fucking end.

♥jakee.

never been so totally fucked up till it all ends well.

HELLO!
sorry i haven`t been much of an active blogger nowadays.
laziness and boredom kinda kicked me in the joints, left me paralyse to enter the blog website. <-- i`m exaggerating. i`m just lazy.

the o level has already started. raya is over. being a stress bomb is a must for this very skeptical season.

i got to say o level is not much of what i had expected. well, i won`t elaborate much cuz i can`t or don`t want to express it in words. especially when i`m typing it out. makes me ache more.

the practical was reasonable. chemistry`s always been a pin, poking my brain til it explode. i don`t remember the details of that day, but i know that i had a bad flu and i overshot my experiment twice. my solutions were almost finished by that time. damn.
biology was okay. but it was kinda messed up cuz the experiment was about homeostasis. the hot water, which was suppose to be part of the experiment, was not present at that time, due to power failure in almost all of the biology labs. so our time was suppose to be 10mins or make it 15mins to finish of a graph with temperature readings. but the invigilator gave our water at 9am. some at 9.05am. like goddamnit! the time wasn`t enough. so most of us just made up the numbers and the graph. it was sloping downwards. thank god.
physics practical was the most unsatisfying of all. i won`t tell why. but out of the four experiments, i messed up one. the other three i did it with perfection, which are the 20mins experiments. the 1hour experiment, something was wrong. the graph was right. straight line. but something was wrong. and i`m too frustrated to talk about it.
The written papers were alright. too complicated to talk about it. i kinda feel gay now. all tired and fatigue.

guess i`ll stop here. haha. the exam season is such a shizhole.

loves much.

♥jakee.

its probably just a glitch in his artery.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO

AZIEMAH 'JON' ANUAR

&&


DOMINIC KHOO.

have an awesome birthday guys.
may god bless you. amin.

♥jakee.