i want you in my bed.

Timbaland feat Fall Out Boy - One and Only.

Timbaland:
I get over heels for someone
that i can`t deal with (deal with)
i want to block her out my mind
but i can` really do it (do it)
i tell her this the last time
i`ma let her do this to me
whenever we do spend time
i realize that i can`t get enough of you.

Bridge:
wipe that smile off your fucking face (let me say to you)
wipe that smile off your face (let me say to you)
wipe that smile off your fucking face (let me say to you)
wipe that smile off your face (let me say to you)

chorus:
to be despised
to be loved
to be dreamt of
to be sought
i`m inside of `i don`t care`
right in the middle
i`m right in the middle

to be despised
to be loved
to be dreamt of
to be sought
i`m inside of `i don`t care`
be my unholy
my one and my lonely.

Patrick Stump:
i wear scarves and hoods
cuz it`s the only poker face that i got left
and everything i love you is a mess
smash the mirrors and break the palm readers hand
i want to be better that i am.

Repeat bridge and chorus.

Timbaland:
girl, just look what you`ve done
how could you do this to me
i gotta put my foot down
i can`t let you do this do me
i can`t forget the good ole times
and all the things you`ve been doing to me
i wanna hit that one more time
i mean love, what you`re doing to me
i`ma say it loud, right here,
let`s fuck in this crowd
why we arguing?
i thought me and you are suppose to be friends
let`s chill for a minute
better yet, we could heal for a minute (for a minute)
baby, put down the knife
sometime i wanna save ya life
why don`t you?

repeat chorus.

make love or just fuck it.

hello, insignificant humans.
i will be inactive for a few days.
i don`t know why but i will be.
oh crap, i don`t know what i`m saying.
i think it`s all the fasting. it`s getting to my head.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!
wait. i`m not fasting. i`m on period. i forgot. --,"

today : well, i woke up at 9am. took a shower, went to the kitchen, ate something light so i won`t get gastric and ask my aunt where mom went. panya my mom knocked on my door at 7am kali. i didn`t know about it. shit. i think ya mau bawa jalan. kes tidur mati. xp
so i spent my time watching tv. then, at 10am ada this tv series Macbride : dogged. siok yawwww. inda nyasal liat. eventhough it was a two hour drama, but it was worth looking at it. anyways, macbride`s assistant is kinda cute. *kirai.
after macbride, there was this british drama, Spooks. interesting but british dramas /movies are as same as their books, slow. and it kinda threw off my interest in that particular british books or movies.
my mom went home and i was asleep by then. woke up at 5pm. tarus main with my kittens. my mom bought a new kitten. her name is Ramadhana. corny but antam saja tia. at least it`s not my name. *wink.
tonight, i tried to study but my brain wasn`t really into doing past year papers so i just read them. that lasted for two hours and now i`m here blogging.

yesterday : i had tuition at 7.30pm. physics tuition, to be exact. <-- paloy. tarus lagi skip ke malam tu.
we were talking most of the time. and i was talking about MTV Whatever Things. I remembered one show that their host, Rando, went to india and he added Khan to his name, Rando Khan. and it means penis. nice~
his friends dared him to drink beer from the nails of an indian man. this indian man was quite unique. he hadn`t cut his nails for ten years, kali and it was long, black, disgusting and worst that mommy`s mole. so the indian man poured beer down his nails, while Rando Khan drank it from below the end of the nails. the indian girls behind them were barfing their guts out. Rando Khan eventually barfed out too. AHAHAHAHHAHA. BARIGALI.

i`m bored.

see you when i see you.

; jakee.

ps. far, awu. i`m single. it was just for a week yaw. it was more to trial. ahaha.
pps. handal kaliah aku ane, buzz. XD

i miss nikola karabatic and i`m gay♥
8D

oh, youuu.

okay. since i`m such a nice person, and sincerely i am bored.

so, here goes.

Happy Birthday, Muhammad Mu`ammar.

i`m really nice, am i? kesian bah anak sorang ane. Lapan belas taun ya dah. tua yaa. nada orang greet ya time birthdaynya. tsktsk. ku greet pun lambat sal i was so busy melayan-ing my arm. it got teseliuh yaww.

so happy birthday, senior yang tak ku kenali banar-banar.

ikhlas dari ku, yaww. (:

; jakee.

oh, youuu.

aku bored.

aku single yawwww. ♥

yeah. sekarang aku suka beyaww or yoo. antah napa. duli. aku bored. aku rindu snickers. i lap you.

happy fucking holiday♥

sorry, judin. never loved you. it`s exactly a week cuz i don`t like you. sorry, bui. i wanted it to be on a special occasion.

shit. what am i talking about? this is the shittiest blog i`ve ever made.


i hate today. i 'broke' my arm. i`m not fasting. my creditkan habis. and i can`t study. shit.

i miss you, sir albert. <-- yeah, right. sense the sarcasm, dude.

i hate raya.

; jakee.

those were the precious undefeats.

hoooooooooliiiiiiiidaaaaaaaaaayyyyssssssss
reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeks!

it`s the third day of holidays and it`s soooooooooooooo BORING YAWWWW.

yesterday : i went to belait. my parents wanted me to visit my granddads kubur. but before we went to belait, i went to tutong skajap cuz my parents wanted to check the tutong tamu. cool jua that place. ahahaha. lots of varieties of fruits and veggies. AND DORANG ANEE JUAL THIS CUTECUTE RABBIT! SO CUTEEEEEEEE! XD my mom wanted to buy it but then, we have six cats baah. yatah, nanti kelaie dengan the rabbit. then, i saw najwan there. was rather suprised, though. and and i saw abang yusre there too. but then, i guessed he doesn`t remember me. BUT! i didn`t really remember him too. i only remembered him when i entered the car. no wonder i`m like 'macam kenal this guy yang small yet so tough looking ani. like i`ve known him really well.' Panya. abang yusre @ mustajir. AHAHAHAH. palooy. <-- let`s just hope he doesn`t read my blog.

after, that we went to huaho tutong. the clothes lawa yooooo. but then, it was too MAHAL. so, i just bought two new earrings. lawaa. sadang. so i was rather satisfied.
then, KAYBEEEE. WOOOOOOO. COOOOOOOOL. <-- sarcasm present. went to kaybee. two hours ride. went tarus to my grandma`s place. as usual, still all not-intact-with-her-brain state. then, the cemetery. the cemeteries in kb are cleaner than those in my dad`s kampong. after reading the yasin, went back to grandma`s, changed clothes and went to a restoran. that place has a bad taste in food. seriously, i`m not the only one constantly mocking the food. my dad won`t stop mocking them, either, til today. hung out with cousin, rai. josh and ruu didn`t come cuz they weren`t invited. sii-mahfakeng-hot pun nada. parents told me he went to bsb. duh. dating dengan gf. we end up going home at 9pm+ cuz my mum won`t stop talking crap with my aunts.

today : had a.maths class. my head hurts. feels like it wants to explode. teacher gave us chocolates. i wish we weren`t fasting or i would`ve already eat them.
Went home with a major headache. thought about death and punishment to those who tick me off this lately. i`ll reveal it some other time.
then, i did nothing. seriously, nothing. sleep i guess.
i made a call to judin. then, nothing.

i want that rabbit. shit. should`ve bought it.

noticed i`m talking short, crappy details? it means that i lost my words, my holidays a mess and a boredom and i can`t stand doing nothing.

bitch.

the awesomely boring end.

; jakee.

barfed out love.

woooooooooots.
(:
hello, and sorry for not updating, too lazy.

yesterday : the last day of school. and i didn`t come. we had the khatam quran and pretty much didn`t care about it. i stayed home, watching tv. my mom came home at 11am, told me to get something from the car. SURPRISESUPRISE. she bought a new car. a suzuki grand vitara to be exact, a maroon colored. and I LAAAAAAAIKEEEEE. 8) one day, you`ll be mine, babyy. <-- exaggerating much. then, i went online and registered myself to UCAS. i applied to some colleges in UK, just for a one-step-forward caution for the future.
that night, i had physics tuition and i blab alot since i was the only student.

today : lagi tia boring. nada kan dibuat. i woke up at 10am. took a shower, clothed myself, went down, walked around, talked to amah and went up. that was 11am. then, i slept. when i woke up, it was 3.30pm. WHOAAH. 5HOURS OF SLEEP. MY EYES HURT LIKE HELL. <-- but it was awesome.

honestly saying, the holiday is a boredom. it`s only the second day of holiday, (first, to be exact, since mine started yesterday.) and i can feel the boredom wrapping around me. shit. grimaso skata skila. woooots. lama dah inda ku cakap greek.

that`s it. for now.

the awesomely ficken end.

; jakee.

ps. i MISSMISS nikola karabatic &HEARTS;

a very very congrats from the tip of my tongue.

i won`t blog much about this as i am having a massive headache.
today,

13TH SEPTEMBER 2008

is a date, where i will maybe cherish for the coming future, eventhough i won`t remember much about it.

Muhammad Muizudin Jazli bin Mohd. Jamli.

he rocked the hell out of me today. and he made my hell into a bliss. and if you are my friends, you must know what i mean by 'the happiest day of my life where he made me happy.'

we first met at stella, ten years back. yeah. we were young and obvious, obnoxious towards each other. i don`t talk much but he has the mouth of mommy. then, he disappeared. i don`t really care back then, we were kids. HAHA.

after a year, my dad was assigned to go to japan for three years. so he bought the whole family and dumdumdum, panya anak sekong atu di jepun. not that i was looking for him or anything.
since he`s older, we went to the same school, but not in the same level. We don`t gradually meet in school. the only time we meet was times where the so-called bruneians held a party, reminiscing our very beloved country, which was usually held every once month.
after three years in japan, my family and his went home on the same date. On the airplane, judin and i got stuck in the toilet. TOGETHER AT THE SAME TIME. we didn`t scream for help. and til now, i don`t know why. all we did were tugging each others hair, blaming one another for locking the door. (but why were we in the toilet at the same time? figures.) so then, i was playing with the door lock, which i thought was the emergency button, and we were free.

as soon as we landed at the brunei airport, we never met. til we were in form one. <-- details are not meant to be shared. sorry.

now, he, literally, is mine. and i`m gratefull.

judin jazli. ♥

=D

; jakee.

i maybe dead, but my life was away later.

i need my space.
please, let those within go.

he`s the man.

he`s alive!
and he`s all better!

nikola karabatic♥
loves you.
:)

; jakee.

ghameesetous.

nikola karabatic♥ is frustrated for his team performance against Dormagen.

poor niko♥

get well soon<3

; jakee.

yassou

i should`ve blogged about few days ago but laziness took control of me. HARHAR.

wednesday : it was the english oral exam. i was so nervous. like, seriously, i was. i kept on listening to the mp3, not making eye contact to anybody. i was thinking of words in my head so i can blurt it out when it was my turn. the time was ticking, my heart beated more faster and faster, adrenaline was making me more uncomfortable, as it wanted me to pace but i was too nervous to do so. then, my name was called, i went in and sat down. my hand was shaking when i read passage six. my breathing was fast and my tudong kept slipping off my head. when it was my turn to face the peng-oral, i walked slowly towards them, waiting for them to finish their marking, and greeted them. both of the teachers were nice and exuberant. my reading of passage six wasn`t really that good cuz i was so nervous. then, the random conversation came up. they asked me about fasting and my ambition. told them, i have no ambition. used to have one but my mom opposed of it and my dad wanted to be an economist, told me to take economics but i don`t really enjoy economics. so i told them that i changed my mind and planned to take business studies and geography for form six so i can get into tourism. then, one of them told me that i have a bright future up ahead, cuz i already planned what i want for the future. that was true. but also false at the same time. i don`t know what i want but yeahh. the oral ended up great. and i was rather satisfied with it. Haha.

thank you god. now malay oral. pfft.

the awesomely floros end.

; jakee.

then katalaveno.

♥nikola karabatic will be out for three weeks.

nikola sound the alarm in Munich for the the supercup. 'i feel pain everywhere, especially my arm. i don`t know if i can play.' nikola didn`t wanna risk his health and let himself examined by the doctors as soon as he arrived at Kiel. 'It was confirmed, the justified suspicion of a rupture fracture at the fore-arm are in the area of the elbow joint. it will last some weeks til he can play again, ' said the THW team doctor for the newspaper. the zebras must now get on without nikola and they will surely succeed to compensate this loss because they are, first of all, a very strong team.

get well soon, nikola♥
:)

; jakee.

j'aime ça.

today, THW Kiel won the supercup without nikola karabatic♥


tsktsk. :( reasons are unavailable, sorry.

from now on, i`ll be putting daily updates about nikola karabatic♥

; jakee

ehofiso, m'areseis.

happy first day fasting in the month of ramadhan, peeps.
:D

today, the first day of ramadhan, ee woke up at 3am, but ee didn't eat cuz ee was too lazy. anyways, me lazybum won`t let me outta bed. so ee drank a glass of water and slept til 10am. the whole day after that, ee just watched tv til magrib. i was also online-ing. looking for more info about ♥niko. found that he likes wearing the Royal Stabil shoes, made from adidas and also the new shirt, the Techfit. i`m planning to buy it if ada jual di brunei. talk about grimaso coolness. :) was lazy jua cuz my gastric was on and headache kept attacking me. ehex.
and today, my friend, muizzah zakaria is taking off. not taking off her clothes or anything. but i do wanna see that happen though. she took off to uk, to study there, to make her dreams come through. i`ll miss you, babee. ehex.

yesterday : my cousin, rai, came to my house. mengajut ya datang ah. had to cancel my tuition. it was cool that she came cuz i was doing nothing jua. HAHA. just sleeping around, being a lazy kolo. <-- kolo means ass in greek. WAHAHA. kolo mee. ass mee. GAGAGAGA.
so we went straight to the mall and watched DEATH RACE. it is THE AWESOMEST MOVIE EVER, BITCHES. LIKE SIOK BRABISS. I LOVE IT. 10/10. it`s a must watch, yoooo. me and rai didn`t really know what to watch bah. first she said she wanted to look at mirrors. but then, i opposed her, telling her action movie is better than horror movie. and surely, she didn`t regret it. the movie, most of the convos were so expletive that i REALLY LIKED the whole shit talking. HAHAH.
then, we went to a shop yang atas jaya hypermart, next to lulubelle, cuz rai wanted to pierce her ears. i wanted to pierce the upper lobe of my right ear but then, i changed my mind. takut kana marahi my parents. so instead, i bought new cutex and it`s polisher. after that, we went to the internet zone. i saw wafil there. i didn`t know he was there till he nudged me. gila. it was so grimaso noisy there. like i was in a mental ward or something. after we were done, i met hanif, our senior dapan ideal, dating with his gf. <-- wooooo. kedapatan bedatinggg.
me and rai went back to the mall. i went straight to ego. was looking for nice earrings and studs. but i didn`t find any good ones so i bought one for special occasions. and it`s nice hot pink earring, spicy baby. HAHA. my cousin went to the other part of ego, she was in search of a prom dress for her prom night at her school this november. she found this gorgeous black dress but it was too long for her. cool ah her school ada prom. our school nadaa. time was 8.00pm so we went home. then, i did my biology homework til 1am but still inda siap. AHAHAHA.

so i guess it ends here. i mean the post.
i miss muizzah, man. and it`s been only a few hours.

s'agapo, nikola karabatic♥
i LOVE his picture yang below atu.
:D

tomorrow, oral english. wish me luck, babes.

the awesomely coolness end.

; jakee