he wanted his fate delivered with his left kidney.

have you ever had the feeling that the person you love is so close to you, that he`s there, infront of you, but yet, you can`t reach out for him cuz he can`t be yours?

i just had a thought that maybe i`m in that situation. i won`t mention who. but let`s just hope, that if he`s reading this, he won`t notice that i`m talking about him. <-- please! please, i`m not talking about you!

i`ve liked him for a very long time. i don`t know how i feel about him now, but i do miss him. i`m just confused. perplexed. it`s like i know he`s there, but he`s not there for me all the time. he`ll just appear and disappear whenever he wants. i know he knows that i have feelings for him. but i think it`s human nature to just ignore. the guy that i like sort of changed through all these years. i changed too. but most of the me i have now, is still here. <-- shit, i don`t know what i`m talking about.

he`s not attractive, i have to admit it. but i find him bloody likeable. i don`t like his height. he sort of have this thing on his face that always says 'never will be yours.' shit. i hate this.

i admit, sometimes it hurts. seeing someone you love, with the person he loves. i don`t envy anybody. i shouldn`t. but human nature is always there, to bring out the scam, break my heart and all.

i like his chest. (:

this is not a confession, i think. eurgghh. i don`t like him. i just miss him.

the awesomely fucking end.

♥jakee.