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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO
HJH DAYANG HJ OMAR AKA MY BELOVED MOTHER.♥
i love you, mum. hope for your wisdom to outgrow itself to more luxurious level. always a sagacious person at times when we need comfort. we all love you.
from me, nurul aleefah hakymah, brother, abdul wafiy wafiuddin and sisters, nurul aimi hamizah and nurul aniqah hazimah. not to mention, the whole family, from both sides. we bid you good luck and happiness forever and ever.
♥jakee.
as you can see, for the past few weeks i`ve been perplexing myself with feelings that are unknown to me. well, i can`t really say unknow. let`s just say 'old feelings.'
i`ve been planting my old feelings back in my heart. i don`t know how i recovered them, but it hurts. especially when you know he got who he loves and i`m still a bummer who wishes for world gay humanity.
i`m confused.
at first, i thought that maybe it`s just a part of the recovery that i`ve been wanting these months. i wanted to get over him. i got over him. but he soon found his way back to my heart.
i know, i talked about alot of guys. he`s one of those guys, too. but he made the most dents in my heart. i can`t say his name cuz it won`t be proper and i don`t wanna ruin the friendship that we rebuild these few months.
I did mention in the past posts, that i don`t know if i really have those feelings. But i do know that i miss him.
he is very dear to me. and he will never realise it. cuz he has a person he loves. he won`t give a damn any other person who loves him. it`s always about who he loves.
this is heartbreaking. i don`t wanna like him. but he keeps interfering with my life, that it makes me so into him. again.
i just find him so perfect. not adorable. never attractive. handsome is a sin for him. but likeable, yes. i can`t stop thinking about you.
god. i still like his chest. *sigh.
again, i hope he`s not reading this. but i think he`s not. he ain`t got a blog, anyways.
i miss you.
the awesomely solemn end.
♥jakee.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO
FATIMAH AL-ZAHARA AKA FATED!
I love you, darling. ;D Hope my birthday greeting didn`t disturb your sleep. have an awesome succulent seventeen!
♥jakee.
have you ever had the feeling that the person you love is so close to you, that he`s there, infront of you, but yet, you can`t reach out for him cuz he can`t be yours?
i just had a thought that maybe i`m in that situation. i won`t mention who. but let`s just hope, that if he`s reading this, he won`t notice that i`m talking about him. <-- please! please, i`m not talking about you!
i`ve liked him for a very long time. i don`t know how i feel about him now, but i do miss him. i`m just confused. perplexed. it`s like i know he`s there, but he`s not there for me all the time. he`ll just appear and disappear whenever he wants. i know he knows that i have feelings for him. but i think it`s human nature to just ignore. the guy that i like sort of changed through all these years. i changed too. but most of the me i have now, is still here. <-- shit, i don`t know what i`m talking about.
he`s not attractive, i have to admit it. but i find him bloody likeable. i don`t like his height. he sort of have this thing on his face that always says 'never will be yours.' shit. i hate this.
i admit, sometimes it hurts. seeing someone you love, with the person he loves. i don`t envy anybody. i shouldn`t. but human nature is always there, to bring out the scam, break my heart and all.
i like his chest. (:
this is not a confession, i think. eurgghh. i don`t like him. i just miss him.
the awesomely fucking end.
♥jakee.
HELLO!
sorry i haven`t been much of an active blogger nowadays.
laziness and boredom kinda kicked me in the joints, left me paralyse to enter the blog website. <-- i`m exaggerating. i`m just lazy.
the o level has already started. raya is over. being a stress bomb is a must for this very skeptical season.
i got to say o level is not much of what i had expected. well, i won`t elaborate much cuz i can`t or don`t want to express it in words. especially when i`m typing it out. makes me ache more.
the practical was reasonable. chemistry`s always been a pin, poking my brain til it explode. i don`t remember the details of that day, but i know that i had a bad flu and i overshot my experiment twice. my solutions were almost finished by that time. damn.
biology was okay. but it was kinda messed up cuz the experiment was about homeostasis. the hot water, which was suppose to be part of the experiment, was not present at that time, due to power failure in almost all of the biology labs. so our time was suppose to be 10mins or make it 15mins to finish of a graph with temperature readings. but the invigilator gave our water at 9am. some at 9.05am. like goddamnit! the time wasn`t enough. so most of us just made up the numbers and the graph. it was sloping downwards. thank god.
physics practical was the most unsatisfying of all. i won`t tell why. but out of the four experiments, i messed up one. the other three i did it with perfection, which are the 20mins experiments. the 1hour experiment, something was wrong. the graph was right. straight line. but something was wrong. and i`m too frustrated to talk about it.
The written papers were alright. too complicated to talk about it. i kinda feel gay now. all tired and fatigue.
guess i`ll stop here. haha. the exam season is such a shizhole.
loves much.
♥jakee.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO
AZIEMAH 'JON' ANUAR
&&
DOMINIC KHOO.
have an awesome birthday guys.
may god bless you. amin.
♥jakee.
