where panic starts to settle in.

Bestie ku.

2009-07-10T01:05:00.004+08:00

Azeem Shah Shahri. ♥

My Best Friend. :)

We met nearly ten years back. Approximately that period lah. It was my first day of ugama at Ugama Anak-Anak Polis Diraja Brunei. I used to be in Beribi Ugama but then, mom moved me since it was near her office. I was still confused with the new class and dumbfounded man. -_-" when i entered the class, it was empty. :o HOHO. lunch time, students were doing there Zohor prayer. Still being new and stupid, i took an empty table and just sat on the left side of the class. Then, someone came in. A guy. I thought he was a chinese, matanya sepet. He looked clueless too but chill saja usulnya. He had that 'aku lelaki, tahan macho yawz' look. He, too, took a table and sat in the middle of the class. The class was divide in two, the left and side. The middle was empty. So he kinda stoodout by sitting there.

After a few minutes, students started coming into class and i just kept quiet. The teacher alas came in and first thing she said was 'Azeem, behapa kau duduk sana atu? Kau atu lelaki. Patutnya kau duduk di sbalah kanan. Yang kau duduk tangah2 behapa? Kan ampir bini2? Damit2nya sudah gatal.' <--- it was something like that lahh. HAHA. So dengan muka selambanya, he moved to the guys side.
So i knew him as 'AJEEM' from that day onwards. Time to time, i noticed ya selalu kana bomb leh our teacher but pandai. o_o" usually in between classes, he'd be punished for not handing in hws or leaving his book home. Macam sengaja ya kan buat teachers angry.

Few months after, our seats were rearranged in a girl-boy arrangement. My guy partner was Haziq Husaini. Haziq and Ajeem were close. Close like gay friends close. T_T serious shit. <--- in my opinion, dorang bejumpa atu sekadar kan cakap sal sex, ps1, bini-bini jubur basar. X)

at some times, ajeem, haziq and i would go in a group convo talking about crap. Cool lah. Like i have two dude friends yang funny and semi-gay at the same time. Those were fun times.

Then, time primary 4 ugama, Haziq got separated from us since he got 4Ba, while me and Ajeem got 4Alif. But that time, ada this awkwardness yang selalu linger whenever i talk to you. Si Haziq nada. Yatah malu me. Ehexxx. But antah cana buleh, we started to exchange stories and interests. Our main topic, most of the time, were about music. LINKIN PARK 4 LYFZ KALIAHZ <3. Besides me and Ajeem, there was also Arif Saifuddin and Aqilah. We would invite them in the convo too, sometimes. All four of us became close friends. (: During classes, we would finish our time making up lyrics and exchanging it with one another, commenting how crappy it was. Ahhhh. Good times. Good times. Also, the nick 'Jeemshah' came when Arif and Ajeem kept on repeating 'Diam sha'. aku pun main2kan lah that verse balik2 sampai ku bagi him that nick. -__- <--- ahaha. Aku tau inda cali lame wah. Lame.

Then, not long after, PSR results was out and Arif and I got accepted in Maktab Sains _|_ while Ajeem went to SMJA. Si qilah nada dangar2 lagi. So since ive moved in to MS, i rarely contacted Ajeem. Was too busy with our daily school life and all. Arif managed to keep a strong friendship with him. I didnt really care much since i was making new friends of my own.

Time form2, Arif gave me Ajeems hp number and i contacted him. Like always the crap talk and greetings were a big old-pren-ku-ni opening. By form3, it was Friendster maniac man. Shait. I made one for myself, just in case. Supaya inda di label 'loser _|_". HAHA. Then, Ajeem and i became close through there. :D

Now and so, i would meet his parents. Sometimes him, but i dont greet him, as i am afraid that he had forgotten me like my other ugama friends. <--- sungguh menyedihkan, yes. --_"

so during form5, i went to his house for raya. Like first time ku tu wah. So when i came in, i saw this figure using a white cara melayu yang i havent saw for months. I went over him and clutch his shoulders and said 'gila, jeem. Makin lampuh jua kau. How come youre shorter now? Whats with the specs? Gila. Makin gay.' then, somebody tapped me on the shoulder. I turned to see Ajeem. T_T" shit. I know. Cousinnya panya. (i never told you about this, jeem. Maluku.) then, the next few days he came over to my house for raya. His dad sakai of our house especially the chandelier. Time atu kau emo. I still remember. :P you nearly cried. Too bad we didnt take photos. :s we were both wearing peach. :D

During december, i offered him a position for in 'Crepuscule' for Explore Venture. It consists of four people in one group and we were to do obstacles macam triextrem lah pokoknya. Si Ajeem kept on shortforming our group name to 'puss' = nanah. HAHA. <--- Baie. It was fun. Ya know. Solving riddles and running around with him accompanied with our other group member Tiqah and Fiqah <--- Siamese twins but not joined and different birthdate. Lame shit. Then, in one obstacle, we were told to do a three legged race. The whole 15mins ive been tied up to Ajeems leg and i was disgusted. o.o we were both wearing short parts and kakinya labat bulunya. *imagine that. ewwww.

Those were some of the memories i had with him before the year 2009 came. All after, i think he can recall them by himself. Especially our Escapade outing. Awww. :')

all the best. ♥
we wont forget you

truth.

2009-07-04T23:45:00.001+08:00

from now on,

the phrases US and WE does not exist between me and those selfish bitches.

I repeat. NEVER WILL THOSE WORDS BE USED IN MY SENTENCE OF FRIENDSHIP WITH THEM.

my tunes.

2009-06-01T11:39:00.002+08:00

Put any music player on shuffle and fill out.

1. What song best represents my personality?
Song: Feel Good inc.
Artist: Gorillaz
Comment: people feel good whenever im around. :P

2. What song will be played on my funeral?
Song: Boom Boom Pow
Artist: Black Eyed Peas
Comment: people are gonna be celebrating my death. ;p

3. Will i ever love somebody?
Song: Over and over.
Artist: Three Days Grace.
Comment: awwww. Aku setia. (y)

4. Will i be successful in life?
Song: Sorry Sorry
Artist: Super Junior
Comment: inda? :(

5. Will i get married if the love of my life is out of shape?
Song: Lose control.
Artist: Missy Elliot
Comment: inda? Ill lose control and leave him. Wdpak.

6. Will anyone accept me as who i am?
Song: Never too late.
Artist: Three Days Grace.
Comment: :)

7. How will i die?
Song: I kissed a boy.
Artist: Cobra Starship
Comment: wow. That guy must have deadly lips. :P

8. Wholl kill me?
Song: Without you.
Artist: Hinder.
Comment: loneliness will kill me. :')

9. Will i be a murderer?
Song: Supermassive Black hole
Artist: Muse.
Comment: awu, kali. :p

10. Hows life so far?
Song: Angel
Artist: Natasha Bedingfield.
Comment: Chuweeeet. :)

11. My current obsession.
Song: Get up.
Artist: Ciara
Comment: i go around more often now = sports. :D

12. What song represents my friends?
Song: Forever.
Artist: Chris Brown.
Comment: awwwww. :')

13. Where would i go on vacation?
Song: Face down.
Artist: Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.
Comment: asleep? -.-"

14. What song would i lapdance to?
Song: Clothes off.
Artist: Gym Class Heroes.
Comment: kinky X)

15. Second last question : which sexuality are you?
Song: Anna Molly
Artist: Incubus
Comment: female. (y)

16. Last question : what song should i end this?
Song: Dont trust me.
Artist: 3 oh! 3
Comment: she wants to love me ohh ~ she'll never leave me ohh ~ ohh ohh oh ~ :D

this public holiday is killing me. :(

; kymm jakk.

my life. <3

2009-06-01T06:59:00.003+08:00

Chapter 1 : Personal.

Initials: NHHAR

Middle name : Hakimah

Birthday : 8th november 1991

Birth place : Suri Seri Begawan Hospital, KB.

Current location : bedroom.

Height : 5'6

Hair color : brown.

Eye color : brown

Birthmarks : no.

Chapter 2 : Family.

Do you live with your parents?
` yes.

Do you get along with them?
` just my dad.

Are your parents married/separated/divorced?
` married.

Do you have siblings?
` yes.

What pets do you have?
` cats and kittens.

Names.
` Maguira, Apple, Marco, Simmity.

Chapter 3 : Favourites.

City : Athens.

Seasons : Autumn.

Clothing brand : Adidas.

Color : green or blue.

Chapter 4 : Do you

Sing in the shower?
` yes.

Write memos on your hand?
` yes.

Call people back?
` yes.

Believe in love?
` no. :(

Sleep on a certain side of the bed?
` yes.

Wear glasses or contacts?
` yes.

Chapter 5 : Have you

Gone skinny dipping?
` wdpak? 0_o

worn braces?
` yes. Took it off last two days. :(

broken a bone?
` not yet.

Had stitches?
` no.

Punched someone in the face?
` yes. (y) but i wish it was si tinggi. (y)(y)

Skipped school?
` Duhh

Taken painkillers?
` obviously.

Gone scuba diving?
` no. :(

Been stung by a bee?
` yes. _|_

Thrown up in a restaurant?
` no. --_"

Written a letter to santa?
` yes. But time ku damit, when i was in international school. Kids. Haha.

Beent to overnight camp?
` noo. Missed kem qiadah. :/

Had detention?
` yes. -.-"

Been sent to the principals office?
` yes. During form1.

Called a bitch?
` (y)

Chapter 6 : Who/what was the last

Last person to IM you?
` nina <3

Last person you hugged?
` ze. <3

Last person you talked to?
` sister, sara.

Last thing you touched?
` 0 button.

Last thing you ate?
` cheese.

Last thing you drank?
` milo.

Last thing you said?
` lifes not fair.

last call received : Jeemshah

last call made : Beah.

Last text received : Aslam.

Current

what channel is the tv on?
` nothing.

What song is playing?
` Angel - Natasha Bedingfield.

Watching?
` mobile screen.

What is your background?
` picture si ayyem as my wall paper. (:

Favourite

Type of pizza
` pepperoni.

Sports team
` 3D. :D

Shirt you own.
` many.

Warning.
` fuck off, bitch.

Other random

whats the time?
` i dont know.

Whats the date?
` 1st june 2009.

Do you own more than 5 tv set?
` guess so.

Do you own a toaster?
` no.

Do you own a house with 2 floors?
` its not really mine, but yeah.

What do you think of when i say

Cat : awwww. :)

Jump : Simple plan

Love : sex.

Bed : sleep.

Food : pizza

Scratch and sniff : 0_o

doneeeee.

The public holidays suck. :(

they awesomely fucking end.

; kymm jakk.

the awesome past. :)

2009-05-31T12:44:00.003+08:00

me and ze. ♥

i know its too late, but then, CONGRATS to PAHLAWAN for being the champion of MSPSBS 34th(?) Annual Sports Day.<3

shit. Its delayed by a month.

the awesomely fucking end.

; kymm jakk.

Snakes On Plane (Bring it)

2009-04-18T08:01:00.006+08:00

Cobra Starship - Snakes on plane (Bring it)

[Samuel L. Jackson:]"That's it!

I've had it with these motherfucking snakeson this motherfucking plane!"

Times are strange

We got a free upgrade forsnakes on a plane.

Fuck em,

I don't care.

Bought the cheap champagne,

we're going down in flames,

hey.

Oh, I'm ready for it

Come on, bring it.

Oh, I'm ready for it

Come on, bring it.

Oh, I'm ready for it

Come on, bring it.

Oh, I'm ready for it

Come on, bring it.

So kiss me goodbye.

Honey, I'm gonna make it out alive.

So kiss me goodbye.

I can see the venom in your eyes.

Goodbye.

It's time to fly,

tonight the sky's alivewith the turpentinelounging in their suits and ties.

Watch the whore's paradefor the price of fame, hey.

Oh, I'm ready for it

Come on, bring it.

Oh, I'm ready for it

Come on, bring it.

Oh, I'm ready for it

Come on, bring it.

Oh, I'm ready for i

tCome on, bring it.

So kiss me goodbye.
Honey I'm gonna make it out alive
So kiss me goodbye.
I can see the venom in your eyes
So kiss me goodbye.
Honey, I'm gonna make it out alive
So kiss me goodbye.
I can see the venom in your eyes
Goodbye.

Ladies and gentlemen
These snakes are slitherin
'with dollar signs in they eyes
with tongues so reptilian
This industry's venemous
with cold-blooded sentiment
No need for nervousness
It's just a little turbulence.

So kiss me goodbye.
Honey I'm gonna make it out alive
So kiss me goodbye.
I can see the venom in your eyes
So kiss me goodbye.
Honey, I'm gonna make it out alive
So kiss me goodbye.
I can see the venom in your eyes
Goodbye.
Oh, I'm ready for it
Come on, bring it.
Oh, I'm ready for it
Come on, bring.
Oh, I'm ready for it
Come on, bring it.
Oh, I'm ready for it
Come on, bring it.

We seem to be losing altitude
at an alarming pace
Midtown downtown
Snakes on a plane suggest you grab your ankles
and kiss your ass goodbye

Anna Molly.

2009-04-09T13:36:00.004+08:00

Anna Molly - Incubus.

A cloud hangs over this city by the sea,

I watch the ships pass and wonder if she might be,

Out there and sober as a well for loneliness,

Please do persist girl its time we met and made,

a mess

I picture your face in the back of my eyes,

A fire in the attic a proof of the prize,

Anna-Molly,

Anna-Molly...

Doo doo doo doo do doo doo doo doo doo

A cloud hangs over,

And mutes my happiness,

A thousand ships couldn't sail me back from distress,

Wish you were here,

I'm a wounded satellite,

I need you now put me back together make me right

I picture your face in the back of my eyes

a fire in the attic a proof of the prize,

Anna-Molly,

Anna-Molly

I'm calling your name up into the air

Not one of the others could ever compare!

Anna-Molly,

Anna-Molly!

Wait there is a light,

There is a fire illuminated attic,

Fate or something better I could care less,

Just stay with me a while,

Wait there is a light,

there is a fire defragmenting the attic,

Fate or something better I could care less,

Just stay with me a while

I picture your face in the back of my eyes

a fire in the attic a proof of the prize,

Anna-Molly,

I'm calling your name up into the air.

Not one of the others could ever compare!

Anna-Molly, Anna-Molly!

Never too late

2009-04-02T13:17:00.003+08:00

Three Days Grace - Never Too Late lyrics

This world will never be

What I expected

And if I don't belong

Who would have guessed it

I will not leave alone

Everything that I own

To make you feel like it's not too late

It's never too late

Even if I say

It'll be alright

Still I hear you say

You want to end your life

Now and again we try

To just stay alive

Maybe we'll turn it around'

Cause it's not too late

It's never too late

No one will ever see

This side reflected

And if there's something wrong

Who would have guessed it

And I have left alone

Everything that I own

To make you feel like

It's not too late

It's never too late

Even if I say

It'll be alright

Still I hear you say

You want to end your life

Now and again we try

To just stay alive

Maybe we'll turn it around

'Cause it's not too late

It's never too late

The world we knew

Won't come back

The time we've lost

Can't get back

The life we had

Won't bleed us again

This world will never be

What I expected

And if I don't belong

Even if I say

It'll be alright

Still I hear you say

You want to end your life

Now and again we try

To just stay alive

Maybe we'll turn it around

'Cause it's not too late

It's never too late

Maybe we'll turn it around

'Cause it's not too late

It's never too late

(It's never too late)

It's not too late

It's never too late

mineeeeee. ♥

2009-03-11T11:54:00.000+08:00

Dear bloggers,

ITS FINALLY MINEEE!

i LOVE it. 8)

my dad bought it for me as a present for my o level results. SUPRISE JUA KU TU. i mean my results werent that good bah. but at least i passed. HAHA. like we went to the AV electronics arah mall. my dad told me to pick any one of the items there. i wanted to buy Ipod nano 3G, but then, they only had one color, which is apple green. so inda jadi. i picked the Ipod nano chromatic 4G. i took yang 16GB. HAHA. puas hati kuuuuu.

RAGGAD. -.-V

i bought the green one.

and it has a name. -.-"

HIS NAME IS PIPSIM. 8)))))

and he`s been mine since the 22nd february 2009.

I LOVE MY IPOD.

the awesomely cool end.

♥kymjakee.

he was my one and only ungay lover.

2009-02-23T23:33:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY BRUNEI DARUSSALAM! :D

AKU SAYANG DIRI SAYA KERANA SAYA DI LAHIRKAN BERDARAH BRUNEI. *sense the sarcasm.

MERDEKA! MERDEKA! MERDEKA!

aku bored again. --_" so aku curi tag gay cousin kuuu. :)

1. Are you in currently in a relationship?
- YES. Dengan si Rabs H Lim. :P

2. What was your dream growing up?
- drummer. :DD

3. What talent do you wish you had?
- to do a perfect split. (y)

4. If i brought you a drink, what would it be?
- vanilla coke.

5. Favourite vegetable?
- kailam. AND. brocolli. (Y)(Y)

6. What was the last book you read?
- The Whisperer by RL Stine.

7. What zodiac sign are you?
- scorpio.

8. Any tattoos and/or piercings? Explain where.
- i have four piercings. Two on both ears. :D

9. Worst habit?
- day dreaming.

10. If you saw me walking down the street, would you offer me a ride?
- probably, i guess. ikut mood. (y)

11. What is your favourite sport?
- handball, netball and squash.

12. Do you have a pessimist or optimistic attitude?
- pessimist. -____-"

13. What you you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
- HEHEHEHEHE. :9 wtf.

14. Tell me one weird fact about you.
- i laugh when i cry. serious shit, man.

15. Worst thing to ever happen to you.
- ms ivy complimented my shoes. 0.0" *shivers.

16. Do you have any pets?
- four cats. ♥

17. What if i showed up at your house unexpectedly?
- HEHEHE. wtf. layan saja tia.

18. What was your first impression of me?
- first time i saw you, i thought 'gila, pervert.'

19. Do you think clowns cute or scary?
- RUGGED. (y)

20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
- my height, my fat lips and my eyes. wtf.

21. Would you be my crime partner or conscience?
- 8)

22. What color eyes do you have?
- dark brown.

23. Ever been arrested?
- noooo. But ive been in a police car. RD

24. Bottle or can soda?
- bottle. (y)

25. If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
- SHOPPING HEHEHEHEHE (Y)

26. Favourite band to listen to when youre mad?
- avenged sevenfold. :D

27. Whats your favourite place to hang out?
- canteen and my bedroom.

28. Favourite thing to do in your spare time?
- listening to my ipod.

29. Do you swear alot?
- YES. (y)

30. Biggest pet peeve.
- stupid kitten named ramadhana. Shes soooo stupid.

31. In one word, how would you describe yourself?
- gay. 8)

32. Do you believe/appreciate romance?
- guess so.

33. Favourite and least favourite food.
- favourite ; depends on the mood.
least favourite ; ambuyat. --,"

34. Tag 5 people to do this.
- zimah.
- tiqah.
- fateen.
- jeemshah.
- kapek.

DONE.
WEEEEEEEEEE ~

the awesomely fucking end.

♥kymjakee.

if i told you she were pregnant, would you have sex with him?

2009-02-21T19:07:00.003+08:00

aku bored again. HEHE. so aku buat the tag from facebook, bebeh. :P

what is your name?
` jake. (Y)

a four letter word.
` jock.

a boys name.
` josh.

a girls name.
` joanna.

an occupation.
` joker? wtf.

a color.
` jade green.

something you wear.
` jumper.

a food.
` jelly beans.

something found in the bathroom.
` jamban? -____-"

a place.
` jerudong park.

a reason for being late.
` JESUS CAME TO MY DREAM YO.

something you shout.
` JUBUR!

a movie title.
` jurassic park.

something you drink.
` juice.

a group/band.
` jimmy eat world.

an animal.
` jungle cat.

a street name.
` jalan jambu.

a type of car.
` jaguar.

a song title.
` just dance - lady gaga.

a verb.
` ...

----------------------------------

where is your cellphone?
` on my lap.

your significant other?
` wtf?

your hair?
` dark brown with a bit of orange.

your mother?
` no comment.

your father?
` supporting.

your fave place?
` schools library.

your fave drink?
` vanilla coke.

your dream/goal?
` to be successful.

what room you are in?
` bedroom.

your hobby?
` porn. :P

your fear?
` losing someone.

where do you want to be in 6years?
` GREECE. :DDD

where were you last night?
` on bed.

something you arent?
` strong.

muffins?
` ickkk.

wish list item.
` him.

where you grew up?
` japan and brunei.

last thing you did?
` cry.

your pet(s)
` four cats; maguira, apple, marco, sim.

friends?
` awesome. ♥

your life?
` sucks.

your mood?
` crappy.

missing someone?
` yes.

car?
` suzuki.

something youre not wearing?
` shoes.

your fave store?
` the arcade?

your fave color?
` green.

when is the last time you laughed?
` in school.

last time you cried?
` few minutes ago.

One place that i go to over and over?
` tv room.

one person who emails me regularly.
` facebook.

-
---------------------------------

1. WERE YOU NAME AFTER ANYONE?
` nooooo. but my first name before kym, which was suppose to be maria, was taken from mariah carey. my dad minat. --_"

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
` few minutes ago.

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
` depends.

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE LUNCH MEAL?
` follows the mood yo.

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
` still single. (y)

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH ME?
` awu. (y) sal aku awesome. :PP

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
` most of the time, yeah.

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
` no. took em out when i was eight.

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
` HELL YEAH. (Y)

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE CEREAL?
` frosties.

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
` inda.

12. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE ICE CREAM?
` chocolate mint. mun arah DQ, oreo cheesecake, bebeh. :9.

13. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
` their flaws.

14. RED OR PINK?
` red.

15. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVOURITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
` my height.

16. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
` him. ♥

17. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST?
` YES. *pulls out bazooka.

18. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
` purple pants and im barefooted.

19. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO NOW?
` Dear God - Avenged Sevenfold. :')

20. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
` magenta.

21. FAVOURITE SMELL?
` musk.

22. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
` my mom.

23. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO POSTED THIS NOTE?
` ia gay macam aku. 8)

24. FAVOURITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
` slamball and handball.

25. HAIR COLOR?
` dark brown + a bit of orangeish.

26. EYE COLOR?
` dark brown.

27. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
` no. i prefer spectacles.

28. FAVOURITE FOOD?
` depends.

29. SCARY MOVIE OR HAPPY ENDING?
` scary movie. (y)

30. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
` yes, man.

31. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
` green.

32. SUMMER OR WINTER?
` winter ~

33. HUGS OR KISSES?
` kisses. :P

34. FAVOURITE DESSERT?
` fruits tarts.

35. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
` antah.

36. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
` miss ivy. wtf. ;P

37. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
` nothing, currently.

38. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
` mouse? 0_0"

39. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
` Law and Order.

40. FAVOURITE SOUNDS?
` rain trickling down the pavement, drums, lead guitars.

41. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
` none.

42. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
` i talk to much but im shy. :P WTF.

DONEE BEBEHHH.

the awesomely fucking end.

♥kymjakee.

i wish he was born gay than bisexual.

2009-02-20T12:46:00.002+08:00

i`m so fucking bored so aku curi this tag dari both fated and farah. :P

THREE NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU.
` kym
` poklen
` maria. xD

THREE THINGS YOUVE DONE IN THE LAST 33MINS.
` went out with my dad.
` took my sister from isb.
` paluk-paluk fat kitten ku, apple.

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY.
` friends.
` him.
` porn. (Y) HAHAHAH.

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE SONGS AS OF NOW.
` Dear God - Avenged Sevenfold.
` Without You - Hinder.
` Insomnia - Craig David.

THREE THINGS YOU LOVE IN A GUY/GIRL.
` his height.
` his facial expression.
` his eyes.

THREE PERSONS YOU MISS.
` jeemshah. _|_
` my ex-MA5E people.
` sir gareth?

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE.
` a green ipod nano 3G.
` an indigo hummer / a baby blue suzuki SX4
` a Vaio laptop C535.

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES.
` stalking.
` reading geography books.
` going online.

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR NEXT VACATION.
` GREECE. :DDD
` china.
` germany.

THREE FAVOURITE CARTOON/ANIME YOU WATCH.
` Ben 10.
` Teen Titans.
` Fairly Odd Parents. xp

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE FAST FOOD.
` pizza.
` french fries.
` ayam goreng. (y)

THREE FAVOURITE DRINKS.
` pepsi twist.
` vanilla coke.
` iced lemon tea.

THREE THINGS THAT IS FOUND IN YOUR HANDBAG.
` actifast panadol.
` tissues.
` memory card reader.

THREE FAVOURITE COLORS.
` blue.
` green.
` white.

TOP THREE PEOPLE YOU LOVE SO MUCH.
` my people.
` my family.
` a particular person.

GAYISHLY DONE.

wooooooooooo.

the awesomely cool end.

♥kymjakee

try being fucked up, the bitches love it.

2009-02-19T22:37:00.001+08:00

tagged by zimah. thanks. (:

what do your friends call you?
` kym. kimah. lifah. poklen. maria.

when is your birthday?
` 8th november 1991.

are you a hard drinker?
` YES. (y)

beauty is....
` plastic surgeries and fake boobs.
` something which lies beneath the acne pores.
` used when you want to have sex. (y)

favourite movie?
` DEATH RACE. OHH YEAHH.

provide some of your choice number.
` 13, 8 and 44.

name some of your favourite hangouts.
` my room. the canteen. the library. the teachers cafe. infront of the audi.

are you a party girl/boy?
` AWUUU. *shhhh.

is there someone mad at you?
` sir gareth? *kirai.

name some of your friends.
` tu check the 'champagne for damned friends' list. :D

a friend is...
` when you squeeze their nipples and still managed to laugh at it.
` great when you have sex with them. :P
` a path to happiness and joy. and gayness. (y)
` a someone who would like a gay person like me. :D

what is the more important? love one? Or more your friends?
` our friends are our loved ones. ♥

did a time come that you had 2 or more bf/gf?
` no. i am very loyal. :P

who was the last person you dated?
` zimah. ;p

is there any of your ex's and friends of yours who you know are together now? who are they?
` errr. i dont think so. :|

what is love?
` when you meet someone for two seconds and end up having sex in the toilet/car without using a condom.
` a booty call.
` when your cheeks blushes and your heart thumps faster, and you masturbate more often, whenever you see that particular person.

how about a message for your ex?
` GO GET LAID, YOU SON OF A BITCH _|_

say something to your bf/gf?
` im fucking straight. (y)

tag 5 people :
` yafiee.
` farah.
` iccha.
` rifaie.
` aslam.

GAYISHLY DONE.

i am fucking tired.
goodnight.

the awesomely cool end.

♥kymjakee.

i am fucking cool

2009-02-11T12:14:00.002+08:00

tagged :
1 Kasyferano
2 Tiqah
3 Amal N
4 Zimah
5 Azeem
6 Iqbal
7 Yafiee
8 Nana
9 Fateen

P/S: You guys didnt get tagged by me. Im just filling in the tag friends so that i could answer the questions. ABOVE NAMES WERE ALL RANDOMLY SELECTED.

How do you know 1?
- from Jeemshah.

What would you do if you never met 2?
- never question about my height. she's tall. very tall.

What would you do if 3 & 4 dated you?
- seriously, i maybe gay, but i'm straight..

Would 5 & 6 make a good couple?
- GAY~ HAHA.

Do you think 7 is attractive?
- BULEHLAAAH.

Do you know anything about 8's family?
- just her sisters.

Tell me something about 9
- she's very nice. (Y)

What language does 2 speak?
- Malay and English.

Who is 3 going out with?
- ME! AHAHA. Perasannn~~~~~~

How old is 4?
- coming 18 this 20th of July.

Who is 6 favourite singer?
- antah.

Is 8 single?
- yes. she is.

What is 9 last name?
- sharifah fateen adilah hanafiyah kah?

Would you consider being in a relationship with 1?
- FUCK HELL NO! AHAHA.

Which school does 2 go to?
- Maktab Sains.

What do you like about 3?
- Ya kaleng. xp

i am doing this in the schools computer lab haha.

too bad he wasn`t naked.

2009-02-09T18:52:00.001+08:00

tagged by zimah. thanks.

1. Tag 9 friends.
2 choose your answer and leave a comment in a bracket for each.

i tag no one. (:

1. Would you rather be deaf or blind?
` if i were deaf, inda dapat dangar lagu. if i were blind, inda dapat liat uncle jay. very hard decision. T_T

2. Would you rather lose an arm or a leg?
` an arm. nauzubillah.

3. Would you rather be uglier or stupider?
` uglies. who in the world would be stupid enough to be more stupid?

4. Would you rather be more rich or more attractive?
` more rich lah. $$$

5. Would you rather be blonde or brunette?
` i`d rather choose red hair, but brunette is fine.

6. Would you rather have a third eye in the middle of head or a horn in the middle of your head?
` 0_0" wtf.

7. Would you rather it be winter forever or summer forever?
` winter forever ~

8. If you could only eat only one thing for the rest of your life, would you rather it be sweet or salty?
` chuweeeeet. :D

9. If you could choose a super power, would you rather be able to fly or move object?
` FLY, BABY! FLY!

10. If you had to be an animal, would you rather live in the ocean or on the land?
` on land?

gila. Random jua tag ane. -____-"

the awesomely cool end.

♥kym.

2009-01-02T16:28:00.001+08:00

"Over And Over"

I feel it everyday it's all the same
It brings me down but I'm the one to blame
I've tried everything to get away
So here I go again
Chasing you down again
Why do I do this?

Over and over, over and over
I fall for you
Over and over, over and over
I try not to

It feels like everyday stays the same
It's dragging me down and I can't pull away
So here I go again
Chasing you down again
Why do I do this?

Over and over, over and over
I fall for you
Over and over, over and over
I try not to
Over and over, over and over
You make me fall for you
Over and over, over and over
You don't even try

So many thoughts that I can't get out of my head
I try to live without you, every time I do I feel dead
I know what's best for me
But I want you instead
I'll keep on wasting all my time

Over and over, over and over
I fall for you
Over and over, over and over
I try not to
Over and over, over and over
You make me fall for you
Over and over, over and over
You don't even try to

home

2008-12-24T00:37:00.000+08:00

greetings, fellow homosapiens.

Last saturday, 20th of december, me and my girl classmates, Ze, Shar and Nisa, hung out at the mall. We`ve been planning for a hang out since the end of o level and i say, the hang out was awesomee. (:

I wore my striped long sleeved, sleeveless jacket and cargo pants and left home at 2pm. so i came to the mall at 2.30pm and i messaged Ze, telling her that i`ll be waiting for her infront of Ego shop. She came after a few minutes with her mother. ZE, YOU LOOK GORGEOUS! *turn on. :P after that, Nisa messaged Ze, telling us to wait for her at Best Eastern. So we went there. My phone was vibrating and it was a message from si gay friend aka Jeemshah asking for my location. I replied him and soon met up with Nisa.

On the way up the escalator, we met up with Zimah and Jeemshah. There were planning to watch 'Yes,man.' with Jee and her boyfriend. We had to rush up to the Cineplex cuz we hadn`t booked the tickets. We were watching 'Twilight.' and again, we promised to watch this movie together, since last year. When we bought the tickets, there were only four seats left and it was at the very back row. The movie started at 2.45pm. Shar was no where in sight. So after missing 19mins of the movie, Shar came and we went in. Throughout the movie, me and Ze won`t stop laughing cuz it was REALLY BAD! I mean, seriously, BAD! People who were probably at the front row, tryna do sex were turned off due to the boringness and dullness of the movie. Some people were looking at us as we began to giggle more. We went out last when the movie ended and went to the Arcade. Ze planned to play DDR and i really really need to play the game with those big spiders. I LAIKE. 8) during the big spiders game, me, Ze, Shar and Nisa, squished our ass in the seats and played. The game was AWESOME. I was CRAVING to play that game for WEEKS. Ze and Shar won`t stop shouting their ass off as soon as the game started til the end. To make it more exciting, i joined in. x) Then, after ten minutes of non-stop shouting, the security guard came and warned us to keep it down. Ya jealous tu, inda kana bawa main. after a few minutes on DDR and the big spiders, we went to the KBox. We sang to Britney Spears - Stronger and Michael Jackson - You rock my world. (Y)

it was 5pm then and Nisa had to go home. Her mom wanted some icecream from DQ. We waited for her mum outside Chill. We strolled around after that and i met Jeemshah at DQ. He was with Jee`s boyfriend, Zizul. Then, i gayishly hugged si Jeemshah. First time tu. And he stinks. :| ketara alum mandi anak ah. Shar went over to her cousin, Jaz from malaysia. Then, we got so bored, hungry and gay, we went to McD`s. I ordered the McDeluxe Medium and it was hard to eat since the chicken was huge and my mouth was small. =.=" Both Ze and Shar were stalking some chinese dudes, but i think they weren`t cute yo. We stuffed and again, bored. We went back to the mall, it was raining outside and played some more arcade. (Y) i spend nearly $12 on arcade that day. HAHAH. And! I saw ex slash cousin slash friend slash gay, Memet malek outside the arcade. I think he was looking for cheap men. *kirai. HAHA. Satisfaction achieved. :D

i went home kana antar oleh mama si Shar and we kept on talking about bapa si anu, nini si anu, orang goverment karit, hujan takut banjir and some stuff. Came home at 8.30pm and my mom was pissed but hey, i`m home and ALIVE.

Overall, the day was AWESOME and SUPERB. I love you, guys. (:

and also, on that night, i had a weird dream that consists of me and Jeemshah. :| seriously bui, inda ku ingat that dream. Must be cause of your perfume tu.

Well, i guess that`s all. Good night.

♥kym.

are you ready?

2008-12-17T22:42:00.004+08:00

tagged by farah. thanks.

ABOUT MYSELF
1. What is your name?
` Nurul Aleefah Hakimah Hj Abd Razak.

2. How old are you?
` 17 years, 1month and 10days.

3. When is your birthday?
` 8 November 1991.

4. How tall are you?
` 5'4 feet / 164cm

5. What is your weight?
` don`t know. :|

SCHOOL LIFE
1. Which school did you go to?
` PGGMB SG AKAR

2. What class are you in?
` MA5E ♥. Next year T1A.

3. You usually sit at the back or infront?
` infront.

4. Who do you usually hang out with at school?
` i hang out with lots of people. (:

5. What is/are your favourite subjects?
` Economics, English and Physics.

RELATIONSHIP.
1. Are you single/taken/married?
` i`m single but my heart is already taken.

2. By who? If you`re taken/married?
` the lil dude. ♥♥

3. What is your longest relationship?
` 5months 28days.

4. Ever given/received a rose from someone you loved?
` no.

5. When was the last time you said i love you to someone?
` nina. On msn. Few hours ago. (:

DEEPER.
1. Have you ever kissed someone that belongs to other people?
` i don`t know if he was single or not. :P

2. Will you kiss the person you last kissed?
` no. :|

3. Ever thought of wanting to make love with you loved ones?
` i have someone in mind. ;P

4. Hugs or kisses?
` lapdancing? ;p

5. Have you ever cry just because you love him/her so much?
` yes.

PAST.
1. Do you regret of being with any of your ex boyfriend/girlfriend?
` so far, no. (:

2. What one thing you regret doing in the past?
` not being mature enough. =/

3. Have you cry recently? Why?
` yes. Because i miss antoine. :P

4. Have you ever regret rejecting peoples proposal?
` not that i can think of, no.

5. Whos the last person that you kissed and hugged?
` my fat kitten, apple. (:

FRIENDS.
1. Who are/is your close friends?
` Ze, Shar, Zimah, Amal, Ain, Tiqah, Nina, Jeemshah, Rai, Nisa and Rabs.

2. Will you do anything for them?
` depends.

3. How many times do you guys see each other?
` we see most of each other during school. i see jeemshah only at the end of the year. i hang with rai whenever i go back to belait. :)

4. Love and friendship, which do you choose?
` friendship, i guess. cuz they are our loved ones. <-- membual. If they list out gay, i have to choose gay then. :PP

5. Ever been used by your friends/use your friend?
` yes. One of my friend is my grave digger. (Y) HAHA. nadawah. jk.

FAMILY.
1. How many family members do you have?
` six.

2. Which one are you close with?
` depends on my mood whether to hate or like my siblings.

3. Do you tell everything to your parents?
` not everything.

4. Sleep alone or with siblings?
` i LOVE sleeping alone. but my sisters sharing the same bed with me. :S

5. What will you do if youre living alone?
` i`ll do anything i want. Sleeping without anyone interfering. 8)

FREEDOM.
1. Are you allowed to have gf/bf?
` inda. :|

2. How many times you went out a week?
` depends.

3. Do you parents look at your homework/schoolwork?
` no.

4. Do your parents read your inbox all the time?
` never cuz the phones with me 24/7. (:

5. Are you allowed to oversleep at your friends place?
` sometimes, i guess.

RANDOM.
1. What are you listening to right now?
` Over and Over - Three Days Grace. (Y)

2. Are you currently eating/drinking something?
` no. but i`m really hungry. :S

3. How late did you stay up last night?
` i slept at 3.30pm memalui-ing.

4. Will you do anything just to get things that you want?
` guess so.

5. What will you do if the person you love doesnt love you anymore?
` ko baie, buduh. _l_

-------------------------------------

1. What`s the relationship with him/her?
` total strangers. :|

2. Your five impressions of him?
` cute. (:
` smart. (Y)
` purdy.
` unpredictable. :|
` cute in every way.

3. The most memorable things he had done for you?
` antah. :s

4. The most memorable thing he had said to you?
` hello~ <-- well, not exactly at me. arah si amal. ;P

5. If he become your lover, you will?
` be grateful and never call men gay ever again. :P

6. If he become your lover, he has to improve on?
` nothing. he`s perfect as he is. :)

7. If he became your enemy, you will?
` kill him, i guess. :S

8. If he become your enemy, the reason will be?
` i`m taller than him. :/

9. The most desired thing you want to do for him is?
` confess.

10. Your overall impression is
` perfect. :)

11. How do you think people around you feel about you?
` gay, i guess. 8D

12. The character you love of yourself are
` can`t think of any.

13. On the contrary, the character you hate about yourself?
` well as jeemshah said, i`m a coward and a desperate bitch. so let`s just go with that.

14. The ideal ideal person you want to be is?
` . . .

15. For the people who care and like you, say something to them.
` thanks for caring and wasting your precious time.

I`m, again, too lazy to tag people since this is the third time i`ve done this. don`t wanna burden others since i am already a burden to some.

night.

♥kym.

time of dying.

2008-12-11T23:27:00.004+08:00

ΔΑΜΙΤ♥

∴ broken hearted.

:(

riot.

2008-12-11T23:27:00.001+08:00

tagged by cha. again.

1. Each blogger must post these rules.
2. Each blogger must begini with ten facts about them.
3. Other blogger who are also tagged also state the rules and facts about themselves.
4. You must choose the people to give the aware and list their names at the end.
5. It is essential that a tag is left at their tagboards, letting them know about the aware theyre rewarded.

ten facts about me. (:

1. i wear braces. it`s anniversary is on the 14th of february.

2. i panic whenever i don`t wear eyeliner especially when there`s a special occasion or when i`m going out.

3. i jump and twirl alot.

4. i can`t pronounced the letter S and L whenever i`m talking.

5. i like small dudes. (: very much.

6. i can get really obsessed of something i really like. (ie person i like, brand i like)

7. i used to be a left-handed.

8. i like speaking kedayan at home. banaa~

9. i am loyal. <-- WAHAHA. it`s true. :|

10. i`m into songs made by three days grace.

i tag:
anyone who`s reading this. ;p

DONEE.

the awesomely banaaa end.

♥jakee.

never too late.

2008-12-10T23:40:00.001+08:00

what if your ex said this to you:

1. Hi. How are you?
` i`m find. How are you? Still fucking cheap prostitute and getting breastfed by your mum?

2. Hey! You wanna go to the mall?
` seriously? You and me? That`ll be an eyesore. For me.

3. I love you.
` you damn fucker. _l_

4. Do you want some cookie?
` that`s one of the reason i broke up with you.

5. Can i take a picture with you?
` sorry. It`ll cost you.

6. Would you held me with my homework?
` what do you think i am? oprah?

7. Here`s a gift to you.
` how cheap is it?

8. Let us just be friends.
` fine. But you`ll be last on my friends list.

9. Do you want me to buy you an ipod?
` seriously. where the hell do you get the money? pole dancing at the gay pub?

10. Lets watch a movie.
` and waste my time sitting next to you, smelling your filthy perfume? i rather not.

11. Hi baby.
` fuck face. _l_

12. You`re still gorgeous.
` i know. Your lost.

13. I still love you.
` are you drunk? you`re suppose to say that to the prostitute you`re dating now.

14. Can i visit your house?
` sorry. it`s not a strip club.

15. Do you love me?
` you`re stupid.

Now tag five people.
` farah
` rifaie
` cha
` phise
` zimah

DONE.

the awesomely fucking end.

♥jakee.

the animal i have become.

2008-12-07T01:18:00.000+08:00

tagged by cha. again.

Type your FULL name with you elbow.

wtp jjnmjg gjjWAP jtm gj jadul sulag

what the pak did i typed out? Cha, mobile blogging is hard. Especially when elbows are used. ;)

♥jakee.

no one can hear you moan like a bitch.

2008-12-07T01:17:00.000+08:00

tagged by the gay cousin, memed malek. thanks.

1. The person who tagged/passed you is?
` cousin. friend. kaleng. memed malek.

2. Your relationship with him?
` someone who used to be 'ampir'. cousin. senior. kaleng brunei terakhir.

3. Your five impressions of him?
` exuberant. gay. open. gay. gay.

4. The most memorable thing he said to you.
` yes, yes, dear, ambok. <-- i`m outta ideas.

5. The memorable thing he had done for you.
` gave me a necklace for my sixteenth birthday. came to my house for raya.

6. If he becomes your lover, you will?
` he used to be my lover. :| and if it were to happen again, imma kick his balls.

7. If he become your lover, he has to improve on?
` his height. his habit of pinching me. his ugly janggut. *shivers.

8. If he became your enemy, you will?
` chop him to bits. break his balls. snap his neck. strip him naked, take his pictures and post in on herpes.com. awesomee.

9. if he become your enemy, the reason will be?
` everything.

10. The most desired thing you to do for him is?
` slap him on the face as soon as school reopens.

11. Your overall impression of him is?
` gay. hands down.

12. How you think people around you feel about you?
` people like. people hate. people love. people loathe. i don`t give a damn. i am who i am.

13. The character you love of yourself.
` nothing. :(

14. On the contrary, the characteristic you hate about yourself?
` my shortness. the specs. my stupid feelings. physically and emotionally, but yeah.

15. The ideal person you want to be is?
` no one. -___-"

16. For people who care and like you, say something to them.
` don`t drink cat piss.

since i`ve done this same thing few months ago, i`m too lazy to tag anybody. (:

DONEE!

the awesomely cool end.

♥jakee.

this is an ass whoopin.

2008-12-06T23:38:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO

MOHD AZEEM SHAH SAHRI AKA JEEMSHAH. :DD

you`re seventeen years old now. and i don`t think i`m gonna expect a wiser jeemshah from you. not saying you`re still kiddish, but you are who you are. <-- shit. membual.

sorry i haven`t been treating you like a friend these few days. i`m going to give my utmost apology as i ignored and won`t give much damn about your birthday. i`m sorry.

i know you must be wondering why i had a sudden change in moods and attitude these few days. and i assure, it`s nothing serious. well, honestly, it is something serious. but it`s not for you to get worried or start blaming yourself as if all of this was your fault. no. it`s my fault. i can`t handle my problems, and i just threw all my frustration, devastation and crestfallen feeling to everybody else, including you. my family problem, my life, my health problem, all of them are mixing up, forming a big burden for me. it`ll form a gap between our friendship. and if it truly is the problem between both of us, i`m sorry.

if only i can punish myself for making you worried. as a friend, i should`ve played my role, being open and not secretive and not making other friends worried sick about me. but since i am stubborn in some cases and situation, i broke my friends expectation of myself for being weak and cowardly. damn. this is hard. :|

and again, happy birthday, jeemshah. we`ve been friends for more than 7years, if i`m not mistaken. and i cannot believe we would even still be friends till now. you are truly a good friend and i wish for your happiness and best of luck in every obstacles that are waiting for you in the future.

happy birthday, my best gay friend. hope you get wasted. ;P

baie. aku headache lagi. =/

the awesomely sober end.

♥jakee.

ps. i`m feeling kinda better now. (:

i gonna make this real.

2008-11-30T23:24:00.001+08:00

i`ve been tagged by cha, aka sii-stare-a-lot.

1. put your mp3, windows player, etc on shuffle.
2. for each question press the next button to get your answer.
3. you must write that song name down on matter how silly it sounds.
4. put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. tag 6 people.

1. are you a male or female?
` baby boy - beyonce feat sean paul. [baiee]

2. describe yourself.
` glamorous - fergie. [awesomee. :)]

3. what do you feel when they`re around you?
` hot and cold - katy perry.

4. describe your current relationship.
` lets get it started - black eyed peas. [the hell?]

5. where would you like to be now?
` 7mins in heaven - fall out boy. [-____-"]

6. how do you feel about love?
` feel good inc - gorillaz. [manada, baie. aku heartbroken ni.]

7. whats your life like?
` lollipop - lil jon feat static. [PAKAA!]

8. What would you ask if you had only one wish?
` roses - outkast. [THE HELL?]

9. say something wise.
` lying is lie most fun a girl can have with out taking of her clothes - panic! at the disco. [HAHAH. VERY WISE.]

10. if someone says 'is this okay?', you say
` what you got - colby o donnis feat akon.

11. How would you describe yourself?
` crazy in love - beyonce feat jay-z. [heart broken. :(]

12. what do you like in a guy/girl?
` don`t stay - linkin park. [BAIE.]

13. How do you feel today?
` naughty girl - beyonce. [damn you song]

14. What is your life purpose?
` burnin up - jonas brothers. [oh yeaaaahh, bebehh.]

15. What is your motto?
` billie jean - michael jackson. [i lost myself]

16. What do your friends think of you?
` low - flo-rida [madapaka]

17. What do you think of your parents?
` dangerous - akon feat kardinal offishal. [true. true.]

18. What do you think about very often?
` throw it on me - timbaland feat the hives. [im lost again.]

19. What is 2+2?
` the carpal tunnel of love - fall out boy. [awesome. i never knew that.]

20. what do you think about your bestfriend?
` one and only - timbaland feat fall out boy.

21. What do you think of the person you like?
` thnks fr the mmrs - fall out boy. [i love you. :(]

22. What is your life story?
` numb - linkin park [yeah. Especially my feet]

23. What do you want to be when you grow up?
` decoy - paramore. [haha. baie.]

24. What do you think of when yet see the person you like?
` what happened to us? - hoobastank. [seriously, yes. i do.]

25. What will you dance at your wedding?
` dance, dance. - fall out boy. [OH YEAH!]

25. What will they play at your funeral?
` decode - paramore.

26. What is your hobby/interest?
` scream - keri hilson feat timbaland.

27. What is your biggest fear?
` mama - my chemical romance. [HAHA.]

i tag
zim
ze
farah
fateen
and two other random people. (:

gayishly done!

♥jakee.

stripped open a leprachaun, babyyy.

2008-11-18T00:17:00.004+08:00

untuk khaliilah dolrani aka the flying dutchman, chemistry was ayt, babyy. kesajukan ku tadi. baik tah inda turn on memikirkan sal si cousin, tau inda panas audi atu. :P

EHH, TODAY I AM EXACTLY SEVENTEEN YEARS, TEN DAYS, TWO HUNDRED AND FORTY HOURS AND THIRTEEN MINS.

handal maths aku ane. 8) and inda, khal. time aku buat ane aku inda kerasukan. kelaparan ada pulang.

NO MORE EXAMS!
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

so, good luck to sii phise aka lauk, sii damiit and people taking bio. thursday last kamu. baca doa. makan kismis. jangan tekamih di seluar. (Y)

the awesomely cool end.

♥jakee.

it maybe just my thoughts.

2008-11-17T18:31:00.000+08:00

O LEVEL HABIS!

SCREW YOU, SCHOOL! ;P

I`m so freakin happy. :|

the awesomely cool end.

♥jakee.

they want people`s balls for brunch.

2008-11-15T00:21:00.000+08:00

i`ll be updating about the coolness of this week. too long to post. *yawns.

it`s ten minutes coming to 12.30pm. again, i`m still up. trying to wake sii fhise aka lauk up. again. for the second time. hope he wakes up. so tired. fatigue. kill him if he doesn`t. *gayish glare.

i kinda miss sii damiit today. =/ i don`t know why he keeps on popping into my head these few days. his picture in the name baka baru, very CUTE. (:

rie, baby. i`ll be missing your gay yet so-hard-rocking-brain-causing-spasm blog. i love you. <3

bah. atu tah saja.

the awesomely boring end.

♥jakee.

unknown love bimbomatic.

2008-11-11T23:56:00.001+08:00

sii phise aka lauk tidur awal ane.
suruhnya ku mc after his 20mins nap. maseh inda mau bangun ah. :|
tidur mati tah tu. ish ish.

awu ehh. hari ane, sii gay cousin ya panya wrist kana bandaged/wrap up. he said he sprained it. -_-" he ain`t so manly after all. HAHA. get well soooooon, beloved cousin. (:

maseh inda mau bangun sii phise ahh. =.=

aku plang yang mau tidur ane. ishhhh.

the awesomely annoying end.

♥jakee.

do you know you`re short?

2008-11-11T23:39:00.000+08:00

aku JOBLESS berabis.
0_0"

tomorrow, physics paper.totally not prepared. like seriously.

tadi, additional maths paper 1. boo that paper. (N) mati inda kali ku pass paper ane. i think i just doodled on the paper. =.=" there were some questions i know how to do but yang payah kan mati atu (N). ada some of my friends yang give up dah, keluar awal. boring tah dorang kan menunggu tu.

before the exam started, i hung out at the library with my gay do0ders. which included sii exotic, sii freaky-too-much and sii-stare-a-lot. in other words, ze, nisa and cha. i lopxx me bebehzz. mwahxx.
then, when it was time to go into the auditorium, i had to go to the place yang ada cabinet simpan bag. when i was busy putting out my stationary out of my bag, which was really on the top shelf, ada this voice in my back yang said, "duh." that voice made my bulu roma meremang. first time ku tu ah, ada feeling catu. i know i used to like him and all, but seriously, our problem never ended since last year dah. i kinda miss him. :( but then, he is better off with the girl he loves. he`s still really cute though. xD
but the feeling yang i had goosebumps atu seriously shocked me. i think i need a new name for him. his old nick is sooooo obvious.

aku tired and mengantuk. -_-

the awesomely tiring end.

♥jakee.

throw all your cocaine away.

2008-11-10T23:09:00.002+08:00

HELLO!

since i`m jobless now, i`m gonna post what i did on my birthday.

I woke up at 5.30am that day. was rather overwhelmed. antah napa ya. but i feel really gay + sad. i checked my phone and there were birthday greetings sent by both family and friends via MSN and SMS. sorry. I didn`t reply. my credit was rather low. but i really appreciate it. xp

so i got ready to school and went down to have breakfast. my family were downstairs and were singing the usual birthday song. my dad gave my $$$ and my mum gave me a hug. she`ll give me a present nanti. but thanks youuu. (:

when i came to school, naz, zimah, and irma, were there already. we went straight to get a netball ball and played a few hoops at the netball court yang outside. so we played for an hour til tiqah arrived. then, nisa came out of nowhere. we talked bout the upcoming netball tournament and exploreventure, which are coming in the next two weeks. after that, we all broke off. i went with naz and irma to the library, tiqah and zimah went to their class. so just memalui di library. not studying and being all boring. i was greeted by some other friends. so the usual school life was back intact at that time so it was boringboringboring.

when i got home, i was watching astro the whole day. i received more greeting messages. at night, my dad bought me, my mom, brother and sister arah millenium. fortunately for us, they were having BBQ buffet that night. it cost $25.50 seorang. worth it lah. cool cool. i like the tiramisu cake. =9

that night, i was just counting the hours. was chatting with si fhise aka lauk. makin lame eh ya ane. but hey, at least i made a friend on my birthday. (: thanks.

then, five minutes before 8th november ended, phise sang me his oh-so-famous birthday song. this time i didn`t get disconnected. ^^

so, i again i wanna thank to all the people who managed to cheer up my day and make my birthday a superb day ever.

♥
my god bless y`all.
;)

the awesomely cool end.

♥jakee.

you never thought it would be in your knickers.

2008-11-10T22:33:00.001+08:00

again. i wanna remind my self.

i am TUJOH BELAS years old now.
tuaaaaaaaaaaaa. =/

but somehow, i feel cool jua. 8D

8th november 2008 was the date where i celebrated my seventeenth birthday. i am grateful and also thankful to those who had greeted me on that date. i am flattered. you guys are truly my friends.

Fated. Zimah. Natalie. Han. Adly. Phise lauk. Rabs. Farah. Muney. Amp Hanisah. Shar. Amal N. JeeJee. Nina. Fayz. Dee. Faie. Nisa. Hazzie. Tiqz. Buzz. Riku. Cha. Khairun. Jeemshah. Khal. Kapek. Christy. Nadia. Fateen. Zaty A. Naz. Irma. Pajin. Remmy. Khai. Aini. Jon. Aishah. Amal Amad. Herny. Nisah. Wilson. Aqil. Zirah. Mona. Jimmy. My family, which includes my mom, dad, uncles and auntys. And the friendster people.

THANK YOU!

i love kamu semua. <33 *gay moment.

the awesomely touchy end.

♥jakee.

let`s take those arses and whip em up.

2008-11-09T22:18:00.000+08:00

this is so going to be random.

i feel like slapping your face and punching you like a thousand times, ~~ahmad rifaie,~~ si gay cousin.

hmm. i wonder why i`m feeling really gay malam ane. '-_-
must have been the chocolates.

the awesomely random end.

♥jakee.

AHAHAH.

2008-11-08T23:57:00.001+08:00

FIVE MINUTES TO GO BEFORE THE END OF 8TH NOVEMBER! :D

so, my dignity lost his virginity.

2008-11-08T23:25:00.001+08:00

aku GAY awal ane.

imissyouohsidamiit.

the awesomely gay end.

♥jakee.

i`m hungry for filet.

2008-11-08T23:16:00.000+08:00

atu waaaah. lauk aka fish,

fish: okay, birthday girl. i sing birthday song for you.
me: ohh. bah.
fish: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO...

then, i got disconnected.

me: ish ish. i got dc starting ko nyanyi.
fish: aiii. i`m not that bad.
me: eh. okay jua. bah. dapat join p2f tu.
fish: awuuu. VOTE FOR LAUUUK!
me: ahaha. cool. (Y)

well, i kinda changed most of what we said in the conversation. but it was something like this.

jobless much.

the awesomely cool end.

♥jakee.

popped an eye socket

2008-11-08T02:37:00.000+08:00

nick name MSN si rabs awal ane is
rabs; happy birthday kim rapist. (L)

bangga ku ehh. 8D
loves you, rabs. <33
nanti ku dush kau. (:

the awesomely tiring end.

♥jakee.

smirking between the toilet bowl.

2008-11-08T02:33:00.000+08:00

AKU TUJOH BELAS. :DD

it`s 2.30am and i`m still not asleep. i`m just curious and thinking of what will happen next during the school hours. *yawns.

the awesomely fucking end.

♥jakee.

take it all awaaaaay.

2008-11-07T23:59:00.001+08:00

haaaaappy birthdaaaaay to meeee! (:

succulent seventeen, babyy!

here`s something i should share.

2008-11-07T16:54:00.001+08:00

here is a little something that i made for my mother. it`s a short composition that i made for my mother last year. corny but i still wanna post it here.

Mother Knows Best.

As the eldest in the family, i am spoiled by my father. I hang out with my father most of the time. That is why i am a hothead and rude at times. My father is a nice and understanding ma but when it came to teenage problem, it was hard to tell. My mother was there for me. Eventhough i was rude a couple of times to her, she would stay and listen to my problems. My mother is the most understanding person in the world. No one can beat one mothers love.
When i have problems, she would pull out a chair and listen. Like when i faced problems at school about getting bullied and why i am flunking in class. She told me to work harder in class and be strong when bullied. For me, it was an embarassment, called to the principals office with the bullys, to shake hands and apologize to me infront of my mother. I was angry at first but when things started to get along, i agreed with her action.
Besides school problems, there is one problem that most teenage girls do not discuss with their father, which is puberty. When i had my first period, i did not know what to do. Even my father did not know what to do (big mistake for telling my father instead of my mother first.) my mother took care of me like i was a jewel she treasured. My mother told me helpful advice. She made me herb medicine (which i dislike greatly) so i could not feel tired and sore. Indeed she knew what the right thing to do.
Last but not least, my friendship and relationship problems. When my friend was told to move out of the school, i was upset. My friend and i were close and i was about to lose her. I told my mother about it and told me life goes on with or without a friend and she advised me to find a new friend. I neglected her idea. In the end, my friend and i fought and we never spoke to each other again. Or when i had my first breakup with my first boyfriend. I did not tell my mother at first but my mother could tell when i had a problem. I looked depressed about something. So my mother bought me shopping to cheer me up. It managed to improve my mood. Finally, i opened up to her and she listened. My mother told me to believe in what had happened and what`s past was in the past. I thought about it and told myself to move on.
It proved indeed that mother knows best for their daughter and son. No matter how many friends a person has or what organization they belong to, it cannot replace the love and understanding of a mother. A person can survive without a friend but can a person survive without a mother? Think about it.

touchy but yeah. I love my mother. oh yeah. For this compo, i got 35 out of 40 marks. AHAHA.
:DD

mom♥

♥jakee.

ma mama whoopin asses.

2008-11-07T16:31:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO

HJH DAYANG HJ OMAR AKA MY BELOVED MOTHER.♥

i love you, mum. hope for your wisdom to outgrow itself to more luxurious level. always a sagacious person at times when we need comfort. we all love you.

from me, nurul aleefah hakymah, brother, abdul wafiy wafiuddin and sisters, nurul aimi hamizah and nurul aniqah hazimah. not to mention, the whole family, from both sides. we bid you good luck and happiness forever and ever.

♥jakee.

never push around a meatball on a spagetti.

2008-11-03T00:53:00.001+08:00

as you can see, for the past few weeks i`ve been perplexing myself with feelings that are unknown to me. well, i can`t really say unknow. let`s just say ~~'old feelings.'~~
i`ve been planting my old feelings back in my heart. i don`t know how i recovered them, but it hurts. especially when you know he got who he loves and i`m still a bummer who wishes for world gay humanity.
i`m confused.
at first, i thought that maybe it`s just a part of the recovery that i`ve been wanting these months. i wanted to get over him. i got over him. but he soon found his way back to my heart.
i know, i talked about alot of guys. he`s one of those guys, too. but he made the most dents in my heart. i can`t say his name cuz it won`t be proper and i don`t wanna ruin the friendship that we rebuild these few months.
I did mention in the past posts, that i don`t know if i really have those feelings. But i do know that i miss him.
he is very dear to me. and he will never realise it. cuz he has a person he loves. he won`t give a damn any other person who loves him. it`s always about who he loves.
this is heartbreaking. i don`t wanna like him. but he keeps interfering with my life, that it makes me so into him. again.
i just find him so perfect. not adorable. never attractive. handsome is a sin for him. but likeable, yes. i can`t stop thinking about you.
god. i still like his chest. *sigh.

again, i hope he`s not reading this. but i think he`s not. he ain`t got a blog, anyways.

i miss you.

the awesomely solemn end.

♥jakee.

i`ll be blessed.

2008-11-03T00:30:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO

FATIMAH AL-ZAHARA AKA FATED!

I love you, darling. ;D Hope my birthday greeting didn`t disturb your sleep. have an awesome succulent seventeen!

♥jakee.

he wanted his fate delivered with his left kidney.

2008-11-02T05:02:00.001+08:00

have you ever had the feeling that the person you love is so close to you, that he`s there, infront of you, but yet, you can`t reach out for him cuz he can`t be yours?

i just had a thought that maybe i`m in that situation. i won`t mention who. but let`s just hope, that if he`s reading this, he won`t notice that i`m talking about him. <-- please! please, i`m not talking about you!

i`ve liked him for a very long time. i don`t know how i feel about him now, but i do miss him. i`m just confused. perplexed. it`s like i know he`s there, but he`s not there for me all the time. he`ll just appear and disappear whenever he wants. i know he knows that i have feelings for him. but i think it`s human nature to just ignore. the guy that i like sort of changed through all these years. i changed too. but most of the me i have now, is still here. <-- shit, i don`t know what i`m talking about.

he`s not attractive, i have to admit it. but i find him bloody likeable. i don`t like his height. he sort of have this thing on his face that always says 'never will be yours.' shit. i hate this.

i admit, sometimes it hurts. seeing someone you love, with the person he loves. i don`t envy anybody. i shouldn`t. but human nature is always there, to bring out the scam, break my heart and all.

i like his chest. (:

this is not a confession, i think. eurgghh. i don`t like him. i just miss him.

the awesomely fucking end.

♥jakee.

never been so totally fucked up till it all ends well.

2008-11-02T01:10:00.001+08:00

HELLO!
sorry i haven`t been much of an active blogger nowadays.
laziness and boredom kinda kicked me in the joints, left me paralyse to enter the blog website. <-- i`m exaggerating. i`m just lazy.

the o level has already started. raya is over. being a stress bomb is a must for this very skeptical season.

i got to say o level is not much of what i had expected. well, i won`t elaborate much cuz i can`t or don`t want to express it in words. especially when i`m typing it out. makes me ache more.

the practical was reasonable. chemistry`s always been a pin, poking my brain til it explode. i don`t remember the details of that day, but i know that i had a bad flu and i overshot my experiment twice. my solutions were almost finished by that time. damn.
biology was okay. but it was kinda messed up cuz the experiment was about homeostasis. the hot water, which was suppose to be part of the experiment, was not present at that time, due to power failure in almost all of the biology labs. so our time was suppose to be 10mins or make it 15mins to finish of a graph with temperature readings. but the invigilator gave our water at 9am. some at 9.05am. like goddamnit! the time wasn`t enough. so most of us just made up the numbers and the graph. it was sloping downwards. thank god.
physics practical was the most unsatisfying of all. i won`t tell why. but out of the four experiments, i messed up one. the other three i did it with perfection, which are the 20mins experiments. the 1hour experiment, something was wrong. the graph was right. straight line. but something was wrong. and i`m too frustrated to talk about it.
The written papers were alright. too complicated to talk about it. i kinda feel gay now. all tired and fatigue.

guess i`ll stop here. haha. the exam season is such a shizhole.

loves much.

♥jakee.

its probably just a glitch in his artery.

2008-11-02T00:54:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO

AZIEMAH 'JON' ANUAR

&&

DOMINIC KHOO.

have an awesome birthday guys.
may god bless you. amin.

♥jakee.

i wish to shut the playboy mouth.

2008-10-29T22:54:00.001+08:00

GOD! THE EXAMS ARE STRESSFUL!
pmdioroflodaitkmakkiomjwamaw.
ROFLROFLROFLROFLROFLROFLROFLROFL!
&%@*#£$

i`m having backpains and butt cramps. damnit, mahn.

the list:

~~econs paper 1&2~~
~~biology paper 1&2~~
shoot sir albert
~~malay paper 1&2~~
figure how to cut a lemon properly
drink vanilla coke
~~spank the gay cousin~~
~~dush nisa~~
buy uncle jay new pair of nipple ring
get a life
a new adidas perfume
~~constantly mock alif about him being a gigolo with ze~~
~~eat icecream~~
~~eat merci chocolates~~
new haircut
updates on niko karabatic
stalk sii damiit<3
~~stop liking snickers~~
kill myself for liking paiptreepor
~~hugged farah~~
~~go high with ze~~
~~downloaded songs~~
find something to do for the holidays
discuss in details with my parents about moving to pte
~~said madapaka in every phrase that i said before econs paper 1~~
~~estimate how tall damit<3 is~~

fo shiznit, gawd. madapaka much. it`s so tiring man. shit much.

I guess i`ll stop here. i`m soooo tired. tomorrow is the physics practical.

sorry for not updating. but i`ll be back.

damiit<3

the awesomely tiring end.

♥jakee.

this is my time to never go.

2008-10-20T22:44:00.000+08:00

MY GCE O LEVEL TIMETABLE.

20th October - ECONOMICS 2.

21st October - CHEMISTRY 3.

23rd October - BIOLOGY 3.

27th October - MALAY 1 AND 2.

29th October - BIOLOGY 1 AND 2.

30th October - PHYSICS 3.

05th November - MATHS D 1.

06th November - ENGLISH LANGUAGE 1 AND 2.

11th November - ADDITION MATHS 1.

12th November - PHYSICS 1 AND 2.

13th November - ADDITIONAL MATHS 2.

17th November - CHEMISTRY 1 AND 2.

stress, babyy.

♥jakee.

caught you naked under the oak tree.

2008-10-16T00:54:00.002+08:00

ZOMG. BEING TAGGED. AGAIN.

don`t you feel bitchy cuz it feels so much like you`re in a karma?

1. The person who tag/pass you is?

` Fateen Hanafiyah

2. Your relationship with her?

` an old friend. my bestfriend`s current girlfriend. my bestfriend`s bestfriend. ;D

3. Your five impression of her.

` open. loveable. caring. easily broken. funny.

4. the most memorable things she had done for you

` gosh. we hadn`t met each other for 6years. =/

5. the memorable things she said to you.

` i miss you too. (i know it`s simple but i just like the way she said it)

6. if she becomes your lover, you will...

` be killed by jeemshah. *searches for him.

7. if she becomes your lover, she has to improve...

` nothing. she`s perfect being unperfect.

8. if she became you enemy, you will...

` be killed, again and again and again, by jeemshah. and muizz zaini.

9. if she became you enemy, the reason will be...

` jeemshah gay! XD <-- just kidding yaww.

10. the most desired thing you want to do for her.

` plan her an awesome anniversary party for her relationship with jeemshah. :p

11. your overall impression of her is...

` friends forever. (;

12. how do you think of how people around you feel about you?

` people hate. people like. people loathe. people love. who cares. i am who i am.

13. the character you love about yourself is...

` the gay part of me. 8D

14. On the contrary, the character you hate about yourself?

` the shortness. the spectacles. the fats. <-- physically, but then yeah.

15. the ideal person you want to be is...

` ZE! smart, beautiful, gorgeous, tall and purdy. purrr-dy gay, i mean. love you, ze. :D

16. For people who care and like you, say something to them...

` you guys are the gay-est friends ever. i love you, guys. ;D

17. Pass this quiz to first 10 person you can think of.
` jeemshah
` ze
` nisa
` rifaie
` farah
` zimah
` sir james
` amal
` tinggi
` rie

18. Who is no.6 having a relationship with?

` that information is classified. but i know for sure it`s a he. <-- let`s just hope sir doesn`t read this. :p

19. Is no.9 a female or a male?

` i am uncertain of the gender. i`m still waiting for the dna results.

20. if no.7 and 10 together, will it be a good thing?

` O-EM-GEEE. amal, she`s MINEEE! rie is my gay do0d. MINEEE! and no, it`s not a good thing.

21. What is no.2 studying about?

` economics with me. :)

22. When was the last time you had a chat with no5?

` chat as in msn was like few hours ago. chat as in talking few weeks ago.

23. What kind of music came does no.8 like?

` those romantic songs with the usual 'i love you, bitch. don`t leave me, you sore ass' verse.

24. Does no.1 has any siblings?

` yes.

25. Will you woo no.3?

` no. i won`t woo her. but i`ll dush her, instead. Dush you, nisa. loves. :D

26. What about no.7?

` AHAHAHA. BULEH JUA. ZE *WINKWINK.

27. Is no.4 single?

` it`s obvious that he`s not single. he keeps going back and forth to the brothel, man.

28. What is the surname of no.5?

` mango. XP

29. What`s the hobby of no.10?

` besides stealing other people`s gay boyfriend and peeping under people`s skirt, it`s cam whoring.

30. Does no.5 and no.9 get along?

` from the looks of their height, no.

31. Talk something casually about no.1.

` jeemshah. an old friend. a very messy person. and whenever we give each other highfive in msn, there`s always a 'pap!' sound present. X]

32. Where is no.2 studying at?

` maktab sains paduka seri begawan sultan.

33. Where does no.9 live at?

` ampir sampah. <-- you know what i mean. ;p

34. What color doesn`t no.4 like?

` pink. WAIT. he`s gay. he`s suppose to like pink. i don`t know.

35. Are no.5 and no.1 bestfriend?

` no.

36. Does no.1 have any pets?

` antah. adakan, jeem?

37. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?

` no comment -_____-" karang melatup hidungnya mun ku respond.

GAYISHLY DONEEEE!

♥jakee.

change out those feebies.

2008-10-15T23:53:00.002+08:00

HI PEEPS! ;D

i`ve been gayishly tagged by the gay cousin. thanks.

1. What is the most important thing in your life?

` i don`t know. my dignity?

2. What is the last thing you bought with your own money?

` a new gigolo. AHAHAHA.

3. Where do you wish to get married?

` i never thought of where. but i did plan to go elope somewhere.

4. How old do you think you will be permanently owned by your lover?

` i never thought of that one, too.

5. Are you in love?

` NO. nice question, though.

6. Why was the restaurant you last had dinner?

` i forgot, yaww.

7. Name the latest book you bought.

` physics o level SAP 2002-2006.

8. What is your full name?

` Nuralifah Hakimah bte Hj. Abdul Razak.

9. Do you prefer your mum or your dad?

` my mum cuz she`s better.

10. Name a person you really wish to meet in real life or for the first time.

` no one.

11. christina or britney?

` HOW COME PETE WENTZ`S NOT IN THE LIST?

12. The most exciting place you want to go?

` in dennis oh`s bathroom, when he`s taking his shower. =9

13. Do you do your own laundry?

` sometimes.

14. Hugs or kisses?

` xoxoxo. lap dance included kah?

15. 8 things that you are passionate about.

` watching handball tournaments
` playing netball
` dennis oh
` dancing
` black and pink
` vests and tie
` hoods
` eyeliner

16. 8 things i say too often

` apa? apa?
` dush!
` was anybody naked there?
` who died?
` omg. uncle jay lost his nipple ring again.
` ko gay.
` roiteee.
` this is how it feels. *monotone

17. 8 books that you recently read.

` Neil Gaiman - Fragile Things
` Richard Montanari - The Rosary Girls
` physics o level books
` economics o level books
` biology o level books
` the newspaper
` none
` none

18. 8songs i could listen to over and over again.

` The Jonas Brothers - Burnin Up
` P.Diddy feat Keysia Cole - Last Night
` Colby O`Donnis feat Akon - What you got
` Timbaland feat Fall Out Boy - One and Only
` Katy Perry - I Kissed A Girl
` Metrostation - Shake it
` Chris Brown - Forever
` Flo-Rida feat Will.I.Am and Fergie - In The Ayer

19. 8 things i learned last year

` physics class is awesome
` to love being a yellow ic
` pakai mobile N series
` how to buy gay lapdancers online
` economics are bullshit
` pc gets shit out whenever we hit the cpu
` rifaie maintain gay
` sayang kucing.

20. Tag 8 people

` Farah
` Buzz
` Jelly
` Jims
` Han
` Rie
` Cha
` Ze.

DONEEEEE.

♥jakee.

i want you in my bed.

2008-09-22T22:57:00.001+08:00

Timbaland feat Fall Out Boy - One and Only.

Timbaland:
I get over heels for someone
that i can`t deal with (deal with)
i want to block her out my mind
but i can` really do it (do it)
i tell her this the last time
i`ma let her do this to me
whenever we do spend time
i realize that i can`t get enough of you.

Bridge:
wipe that smile off your fucking face (let me say to you)
wipe that smile off your face (let me say to you)
wipe that smile off your fucking face (let me say to you)
wipe that smile off your face (let me say to you)

chorus:
to be despised
to be loved
to be dreamt of
to be sought
i`m inside of `i don`t care`
right in the middle
i`m right in the middle

to be despised
to be loved
to be dreamt of
to be sought
i`m inside of `i don`t care`
be my unholy
my one and my lonely.

Patrick Stump:
i wear scarves and hoods
cuz it`s the only poker face that i got left
and everything i love you is a mess
smash the mirrors and break the palm readers hand
i want to be better that i am.

Repeat bridge and chorus.

Timbaland:
girl, just look what you`ve done
how could you do this to me
i gotta put my foot down
i can`t let you do this do me
i can`t forget the good ole times
and all the things you`ve been doing to me
i wanna hit that one more time
i mean love, what you`re doing to me
i`ma say it loud, right here,
let`s fuck in this crowd
why we arguing?
i thought me and you are suppose to be friends
let`s chill for a minute
better yet, we could heal for a minute (for a minute)
baby, put down the knife
sometime i wanna save ya life
why don`t you?

repeat chorus.

2008-09-22T22:29:00.000+08:00

make love or just fuck it.

2008-09-22T22:24:00.001+08:00

hello, insignificant humans.
i will be inactive for a few days.
i don`t know why but i will be.
oh crap, i don`t know what i`m saying.
i think it`s all the fasting. it`s getting to my head.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!
wait. i`m not fasting. i`m on period. i forgot. --,"

today : well, i woke up at 9am. took a shower, went to the kitchen, ate something light so i won`t get gastric and ask my aunt where mom went. panya my mom knocked on my door at 7am kali. i didn`t know about it. shit. i think ya mau bawa jalan. kes tidur mati. xp
so i spent my time watching tv. then, at 10am ada this tv series Macbride : dogged. siok yawwww. inda nyasal liat. eventhough it was a two hour drama, but it was worth looking at it. anyways, macbride`s assistant is kinda cute. *kirai.
after macbride, there was this british drama, Spooks. interesting but british dramas /movies are as same as their books, slow. and it kinda threw off my interest in that particular british books or movies.
my mom went home and i was asleep by then. woke up at 5pm. tarus main with my kittens. my mom bought a new kitten. her name is Ramadhana. corny but antam saja tia. at least it`s not my name. *wink.
tonight, i tried to study but my brain wasn`t really into doing past year papers so i just read them. that lasted for two hours and now i`m here blogging.

yesterday : i had tuition at 7.30pm. physics tuition, to be exact. <-- paloy. tarus lagi skip ke malam tu.
we were talking most of the time. and i was talking about MTV Whatever Things. I remembered one show that their host, Rando, went to india and he added Khan to his name, Rando Khan. and it means penis. nice~
his friends dared him to drink beer from the nails of an indian man. this indian man was quite unique. he hadn`t cut his nails for ten years, kali and it was long, black, disgusting and worst that mommy`s mole. so the indian man poured beer down his nails, while Rando Khan drank it from below the end of the nails. the indian girls behind them were barfing their guts out. Rando Khan eventually barfed out too. AHAHAHAHHAHA. BARIGALI.

i`m bored.

see you when i see you.

; jakee.

ps. far, awu. i`m single. it was just for a week yaw. it was more to trial. ahaha.
pps. handal kaliah aku ane, buzz. XD

i miss nikola karabatic and i`m gay♥
8D

oh, youuu.

2008-09-20T21:44:00.001+08:00

okay. since i`m such a nice person, and sincerely i am bored.

so, here goes.

Happy Birthday, Muhammad Mu`ammar.

i`m really nice, am i? kesian bah anak sorang ane. Lapan belas taun ya dah. tua yaa. nada orang greet ya time birthdaynya. tsktsk. ku greet pun lambat sal i was so busy melayan-ing my arm. it got teseliuh yaww.

so happy birthday, senior yang tak ku kenali banar-banar.

ikhlas dari ku, yaww. (:

; jakee.

oh, youuu.

2008-09-20T21:43:00.003+08:00

aku bored.

aku single yawwww. ♥

yeah. sekarang aku suka beyaww or yoo. antah napa. duli. aku bored. aku rindu snickers. i lap you.

happy fucking holiday♥

sorry, judin. never loved you. it`s exactly a week cuz i don`t like you. sorry, bui. i wanted it to be on a special occasion.

shit. what am i talking about? this is the shittiest blog i`ve ever made.

i hate today. i 'broke' my arm. i`m not fasting. my creditkan habis. and i can`t study. shit.

i miss you, sir albert. <-- yeah, right. sense the sarcasm, dude.

i hate raya.

; jakee.

those were the precious undefeats.

2008-09-19T16:55:00.001+08:00

hoooooooooliiiiiiiidaaaaaaaaaayyyyssssssss
reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeks!

it`s the third day of holidays and it`s soooooooooooooo BORING YAWWWW.

yesterday : i went to belait. my parents wanted me to visit my granddads kubur. but before we went to belait, i went to tutong skajap cuz my parents wanted to check the tutong tamu. cool jua that place. ahahaha. lots of varieties of fruits and veggies. AND DORANG ANEE JUAL THIS CUTECUTE RABBIT! SO CUTEEEEEEEE! XD my mom wanted to buy it but then, we have six cats baah. yatah, nanti kelaie dengan the rabbit. then, i saw najwan there. was rather suprised, though. and and i saw abang yusre there too. but then, i guessed he doesn`t remember me. BUT! i didn`t really remember him too. i only remembered him when i entered the car. no wonder i`m like 'macam kenal this guy yang small yet so tough looking ani. like i`ve known him really well.' Panya. abang yusre @ mustajir. AHAHAHAH. palooy. <-- let`s just hope he doesn`t read my blog.

after, that we went to huaho tutong. the clothes lawa yooooo. but then, it was too MAHAL. so, i just bought two new earrings. lawaa. sadang. so i was rather satisfied.
then, KAYBEEEE. WOOOOOOO. COOOOOOOOL. <-- sarcasm present. went to kaybee. two hours ride. went tarus to my grandma`s place. as usual, still all not-intact-with-her-brain state. then, the cemetery. the cemeteries in kb are cleaner than those in my dad`s kampong. after reading the yasin, went back to grandma`s, changed clothes and went to a restoran. that place has a bad taste in food. seriously, i`m not the only one constantly mocking the food. my dad won`t stop mocking them, either, til today. hung out with cousin, rai. josh and ruu didn`t come cuz they weren`t invited. sii-mahfakeng-hot pun nada. parents told me he went to bsb. duh. dating dengan gf. we end up going home at 9pm+ cuz my mum won`t stop talking crap with my aunts.

today : had a.maths class. my head hurts. feels like it wants to explode. teacher gave us chocolates. i wish we weren`t fasting or i would`ve already eat them.
Went home with a major headache. thought about death and punishment to those who tick me off this lately. i`ll reveal it some other time.
then, i did nothing. seriously, nothing. sleep i guess.
i made a call to judin. then, nothing.

i want that rabbit. shit. should`ve bought it.

noticed i`m talking short, crappy details? it means that i lost my words, my holidays a mess and a boredom and i can`t stand doing nothing.

bitch.

the awesomely boring end.

; jakee.

barfed out love.

2008-09-17T22:00:00.001+08:00

woooooooooots.
(:
hello, and sorry for not updating, too lazy.

yesterday : the last day of school. and i didn`t come. we had the khatam quran and pretty much didn`t care about it. i stayed home, watching tv. my mom came home at 11am, told me to get something from the car. SURPRISESUPRISE. she bought a new car. a suzuki grand vitara to be exact, a maroon colored. and I LAAAAAAAIKEEEEE. 8) one day, you`ll be mine, babyy. <-- exaggerating much. then, i went online and registered myself to UCAS. i applied to some colleges in UK, just for a one-step-forward caution for the future.
that night, i had physics tuition and i blab alot since i was the only student.

today : lagi tia boring. nada kan dibuat. i woke up at 10am. took a shower, clothed myself, went down, walked around, talked to amah and went up. that was 11am. then, i slept. when i woke up, it was 3.30pm. WHOAAH. 5HOURS OF SLEEP. MY EYES HURT LIKE HELL. <-- but it was awesome.

honestly saying, the holiday is a boredom. it`s only the second day of holiday, (first, to be exact, since mine started yesterday.) and i can feel the boredom wrapping around me. shit. grimaso skata skila. woooots. lama dah inda ku cakap greek.

that`s it. for now.

the awesomely ficken end.

; jakee.

ps. i MISSMISS nikola karabatic &HEARTS;

a very very congrats from the tip of my tongue.

2008-09-13T23:40:00.004+08:00

i won`t blog much about this as i am having a massive headache.
today,

13TH SEPTEMBER 2008

is a date, where i will maybe cherish for the coming future, eventhough i won`t remember much about it.

Muhammad Muizudin Jazli bin Mohd. Jamli.

he rocked the hell out of me today. and he made my hell into a bliss. and if you are my friends, you must know what i mean by 'the happiest day of my life where he made me happy.'

we first met at stella, ten years back. yeah. we were young and obvious, obnoxious towards each other. i don`t talk much but he has the mouth of mommy. then, he disappeared. i don`t really care back then, we were kids. HAHA.

after a year, my dad was assigned to go to japan for three years. so he bought the whole family and dumdumdum, panya anak sekong atu di jepun. not that i was looking for him or anything.
since he`s older, we went to the same school, but not in the same level. We don`t gradually meet in school. the only time we meet was times where the so-called bruneians held a party, reminiscing our very beloved country, which was usually held every once month.
after three years in japan, my family and his went home on the same date. On the airplane, judin and i got stuck in the toilet. TOGETHER AT THE SAME TIME. we didn`t scream for help. and til now, i don`t know why. all we did were tugging each others hair, blaming one another for locking the door. (but why were we in the toilet at the same time? figures.) so then, i was playing with the door lock, which i thought was the emergency button, and we were free.

as soon as we landed at the brunei airport, we never met. til we were in form one. <-- details are not meant to be shared. sorry.

now, he, literally, is mine. and i`m gratefull.

judin jazli. ♥

=D

; jakee.

i maybe dead, but my life was away later.

2008-09-13T23:40:00.001+08:00

i need my space.
please, let those within go.

he`s the man.

2008-09-13T23:40:00.000+08:00

he`s alive!
and he`s all better!

nikola karabatic♥
loves you.
:)

; jakee.

ghameesetous.

2008-09-05T22:14:00.001+08:00

nikola karabatic♥ is frustrated for his team performance against Dormagen.

poor niko♥

get well soon<3

; jakee.

yassou

2008-09-05T22:01:00.001+08:00

i should`ve blogged about few days ago but laziness took control of me. HARHAR.

wednesday : it was the english oral exam. i was so nervous. like, seriously, i was. i kept on listening to the mp3, not making eye contact to anybody. i was thinking of words in my head so i can blurt it out when it was my turn. the time was ticking, my heart beated more faster and faster, adrenaline was making me more uncomfortable, as it wanted me to pace but i was too nervous to do so. then, my name was called, i went in and sat down. my hand was shaking when i read passage six. my breathing was fast and my tudong kept slipping off my head. when it was my turn to face the peng-oral, i walked slowly towards them, waiting for them to finish their marking, and greeted them. both of the teachers were nice and exuberant. my reading of passage six wasn`t really that good cuz i was so nervous. then, the random conversation came up. they asked me about fasting and my ambition. told them, i have no ambition. used to have one but my mom opposed of it and my dad wanted to be an economist, told me to take economics but i don`t really enjoy economics. so i told them that i changed my mind and planned to take business studies and geography for form six so i can get into tourism. then, one of them told me that i have a bright future up ahead, cuz i already planned what i want for the future. that was true. but also false at the same time. i don`t know what i want but yeahh. the oral ended up great. and i was rather satisfied with it. Haha.

thank you god. now malay oral. pfft.

the awesomely floros end.

; jakee.

then katalaveno.

2008-09-04T21:59:00.001+08:00

♥nikola karabatic will be out for three weeks.

nikola sound the alarm in Munich for the the supercup. 'i feel pain everywhere, especially my arm. i don`t know if i can play.' nikola didn`t wanna risk his health and let himself examined by the doctors as soon as he arrived at Kiel. 'It was confirmed, the justified suspicion of a rupture fracture at the fore-arm are in the area of the elbow joint. it will last some weeks til he can play again, ' said the THW team doctor for the newspaper. the zebras must now get on without nikola and they will surely succeed to compensate this loss because they are, first of all, a very strong team.

get well soon, nikola♥
:)

; jakee.

j'aime ça.

2008-09-02T23:08:00.000+08:00

today, THW Kiel won the supercup without nikola karabatic♥

tsktsk. :( reasons are unavailable, sorry.

from now on, i`ll be putting daily updates about nikola karabatic♥

; jakee

ehofiso, m'areseis.

2008-09-02T22:19:00.002+08:00

happy first day fasting in the month of ramadhan, peeps.
:D

today, the first day of ramadhan, ee woke up at 3am, but ee didn't eat cuz ee was too lazy. anyways, me lazybum won`t let me outta bed. so ee drank a glass of water and slept til 10am. the whole day after that, ee just watched tv til magrib. i was also online-ing. looking for more info about ♥niko. found that he likes wearing the Royal Stabil shoes, made from adidas and also the new shirt, the Techfit. i`m planning to buy it if ada jual di brunei. talk about grimaso coolness. :) was lazy jua cuz my gastric was on and headache kept attacking me. ehex.
and today, my friend, muizzah zakaria is taking off. not taking off her clothes or anything. but i do wanna see that happen though. she took off to uk, to study there, to make her dreams come through. i`ll miss you, babee. ehex.

yesterday : my cousin, rai, came to my house. mengajut ya datang ah. had to cancel my tuition. it was cool that she came cuz i was doing nothing jua. HAHA. just sleeping around, being a lazy kolo. <-- kolo means ass in greek. WAHAHA. kolo mee. ass mee. GAGAGAGA.
so we went straight to the mall and watched DEATH RACE. it is THE AWESOMEST MOVIE EVER, BITCHES. LIKE SIOK BRABISS. I LOVE IT. 10/10. it`s a must watch, yoooo. me and rai didn`t really know what to watch bah. first she said she wanted to look at mirrors. but then, i opposed her, telling her action movie is better than horror movie. and surely, she didn`t regret it. the movie, most of the convos were so expletive that i REALLY LIKED the whole shit talking. HAHAH.
then, we went to a shop yang atas jaya hypermart, next to lulubelle, cuz rai wanted to pierce her ears. i wanted to pierce the upper lobe of my right ear but then, i changed my mind. takut kana marahi my parents. so instead, i bought new cutex and it`s polisher. after that, we went to the internet zone. i saw wafil there. i didn`t know he was there till he nudged me. gila. it was so grimaso noisy there. like i was in a mental ward or something. after we were done, i met hanif, our senior dapan ideal, dating with his gf. <-- wooooo. kedapatan bedatinggg.
me and rai went back to the mall. i went straight to ego. was looking for nice earrings and studs. but i didn`t find any good ones so i bought one for special occasions. and it`s nice hot pink earring, spicy baby. HAHA. my cousin went to the other part of ego, she was in search of a prom dress for her prom night at her school this november. she found this gorgeous black dress but it was too long for her. cool ah her school ada prom. our school nadaa. time was 8.00pm so we went home. then, i did my biology homework til 1am but still inda siap. AHAHAHA.

so i guess it ends here. i mean the post.
i miss muizzah, man. and it`s been only a few hours.

s'agapo, nikola karabatic♥
i LOVE his picture yang below atu.
:D

tomorrow, oral english. wish me luck, babes.

the awesomely coolness end.

; jakee

thelo ena niko.

2008-08-30T19:22:00.002+08:00

niko♥
s'agapo, agapi mou.

i slept around 2am last night. was busy chatting with buzz and was also looking for very hot pictures of ♥nikola karabatic in the internet. found rather disturbing blogs that contained pornography but THANK GOD they weren`t about niko. pheww. ghamoto french people. ee (I in greek) think they are so disgusting.
so in the morning, i woke up at 6am. came to school at 7.10am, then i heard the announcement saying that ada assembly. i'm like skila kali, my nails are like long. kan escape cam malas. skata banar tah. that left me cursing till i came to the audi. so when i came there, it was the usual boring mockery from mommy and also mama. pfft. we love youuu. mwahmwahmwah. chayanxx our mommyss. national anthem, school song, speech and more boring teachers speech. salta gamisu, goumari. it`s really fun cursing someone in another language. ;)
then class. maths d free period. she was again, pissed off. biology, nor chua taught us inheritence. i was kinda worrying my ass off cuz i didn`t finish my homework. but good thing, no body tagured her about it. then physics, sir chok cutted his finger cuz i played with scissors. then, i skipped school. HAHA. ESCAPE WOOOO nada dehh. i had orthodontist appointment. so i skipped english and economics. came back at 12.40pm. both malay and chemistry were free period. <-- paloi baik plg ku balek tuu. sudah gigi ku sakit. ishhh. nyasaaal. =/
the library was closed cuz orang form5 already started oral. so we hung out at the concourse. memalui. talking crap. talking about porn. talking about our beloved school, braces and many more.
then, we were talking about majin and snickers. we were just imagining on the night the pu1 farewell party, majin was using a striped shirt and the pu`s taught it was si snickers and they started poking her boobs and asking her about her voice and all. siok laah. by the way, snickers looked grimaso superb on the night. 8)
then, homeeeee.
was kinda sick. so i slept through the whole evening till the morning.

harhar. headache.

the awesomely grimaso end.

; jakee

you annoying freak.

2008-08-30T18:53:00.002+08:00

i`m only doing this cuz i`m forced to do this. the hell. this post is for a close yet so annoying friend of mine. i know you want a post about you, but i just can`t find the words to truly express every memory i had with you. all i can say now is that i'll miss you, babe. yours truly here, wants to thank you for every help you've given me for the past few years. you, buzz and sya are the best seniors ever. :) and imma miss those days where i'd intercept in your conversation and say random stuff, while you give your 'whatever, kym. *rolls eyes.' look. ahh. those times. too bad those times cannot be replayed as you guys are not going to be in the same school, the school that made us meet each other in the first place. i just wanna say i`m sorry if i ever hurt you, haha, but you`re fun to mock. you like to fight back and we end up laughing at each other.
i know you wouldn't expect yours truly to be so sensitive and yes, you heard me cry on the phone when i broke my promise to buzz and saw me cry at school when i thought of buzz and you leaving me, not seeing you guys in school anymore. it is heartbreaking. everytime i see you in school, waiting for the day you`re gonna leave us, keeping your sadness inside, i break. i feel so sad. it just won`t feel the same anymore. thank you. thank you, muizzah zakaria for everything. do your best. keep in touch. aim for something higher, be the best and don`t forget to get laid, yeahh. :P imma miss you bish, so come back.
take care of buzz. she keeps going to the brothel ahh. tell her to bring protection ah. HAHAHA. i`ll miss you all.

loves, kym. xoxo. (;

p.s oh yeah, if you`re planning to come back, minta kirimkan an english gigolo. xD

sa gamisou agapo

2008-08-29T12:01:00.003+08:00

I LOVE YOU, NIKO♥

je t'adore niko.

2008-08-28T13:40:00.003+08:00

♥niko.

today is thursday. cca day.
BORING.
especially when it`s the non-sport cca day. pfft. arts, crafts and batik painting. *thumbs down. me and rabs told teacher masnah to release us cuz we had computer project. rabs was telling the truth. i was practically just playing the truth with her. HARHAR. computer project but i`m an economics student. handal me ane. ehexehexehex. XD

before cca, or before the school started, i woke up at 4.03am due to my handymsn wailing for my attention. when i went to see who clicked, it was shar. she thought i was awake cuz my nick was j ; nk. blogging. but i was ASLEEP and i FORGOT to change my nick. shar, you owe me an hour of sleep, bebeh.
so slept after saying goodbye and woke up at 6am. came to school at 7.11am. additional maths was the same. boring and always will be boring. after that, we had half an hour of physics and maths d. then, english. it was a good thing we had the senior english reading room today, i can sleep. so i did. i read a bit of neil gaiman`s fragile things and doze off a few minutes after that. surely, i was only half-asleep. i can`t be fully asleep or i`ll get a beautiful sensation from the truly best, albert with his nice chocolate cadbury cover pencil box.
we had cca after that. teacher masnah approved our permission to release us from cca. phewww. HAHA. so we went to MA5C. while she was doing her project, i was introducing ♥nikola karabatic to her. and she drooled, mahn. like omagad. chiyuutz kaliahzz.

went home at 12.30pm. malay class was cancelled. and now i`m here blogging.

And also this morning aku tersasul wah. i said eh jubur mu kaling. arah sii rabs. and she replied "manada. jubur ku melayu kaliah. ehexehex." me and ze were laughing so hard. like lameeeee.

i guess i`ll end it here. i wanna sleep skajap.

♥nikola karabatic.

the awesomely futre end.

; jakee.

me lene theka-tria jakee.

2008-08-27T18:45:00.004+08:00

i`ve been dead alright.
here`s the freakin update, by yours truly.

the qualifyings over and i`ve been dreading these few weeks. well, make it exactly three days. been dreading about the end of olympics :(

i was so uptight with the olympics. i really LOVE it. i`m ADDICTED to the olympics. i feel rather overwhelmed cuz it was the best ever thing i ever saw and i didn`t get to see the opening. I MEAN SHIT, THE OPENING WAS THE AWESOME-EST AND I FUCKING MISSED IT. faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaak. :(

~~i fell in love~~
♥
i mean, in love with an olympian who did very very very very very well in the olympics. and every time i see on tv, performing his best in the olympics, my eyes swell and my heart beats. ohh, baby.

his name is

nikola karabatic.

i first saw him during france`s handball match against america. i was mesmerized by his 7m throw. i like the way his body moves whenever he runs. i like the way he jumps whenever he throws the ball. i like it when he screams with pride whenever his quarry block him. i like it when he smiles after scoring the ball. i like his very beautiful body. *oh crap. i`m drooling. the thing i like about him the most is his abs. i can imagine it now. him, throwing the ball, with force, letting the jersey stick to his skin, forming a beautiful pattern which is so heart-melting. ohhhhhhhh. caer me kaliahhz. like vravishly.

ILOVETHEEUROPEANS

nikola karabatic.he was born on 11th april 1984. he`s a croasian, serbian.(sp?) casually know as niko or kara. shit. so young. he`s frenchman. he started playing handball at the age of 6, if i`m not mistaken. he first went into the spotlight in the year 2000. he`s with the THW Kiel of German. he was and is the best left-back player since 2003. and this year is his third gold since the olympics. his father is a goal-keeper for a french football team. his brother is a famous tennis player, luka kabatic and his mother is an artist. he is still a student and his jersey number for the olympics is always #13. <-- WOOOO THAT`S MY JERSEY NUMBER TOOOOO EHEX EHEX EHEX. because of him, his frequent throws during the game (and also good defending skills by the goal keeper, thierry omeyer, handal ni ya aneee. he defended 9/10 balls.) his beautiful 7m throws finally led france to the winning champ, obtaining a gold for the men`s handball team. <-- very inspiring. i love him. 8) the abs mostly.

besides, france, i also supported brazil in most of the categories. congratulation to those who wins. here, a token of proudness from yours truly. _l_ this is for the winners. cherish what`s best, baby. especially you nikola karabatic, the IT guy, for now.

sorry, i can`t upload his picture. stupid connection. anyways, nikola ain`t that cute. his brother is hotter. but i still prefer nikola, though. HAHA.
i can`t wait for the next olympics. i want to get a scholarship after A level and watch the olympics in london. <-- good idea, bebeh.

after few weeks, not updating the blog, wasting time doing nothing, not watching heavily lust porn or going online, finally i am updating my blog. and i hope you`re happy with it. so just shut up and just read whatever i`m doing.

i'll stop here as i am already sleepy.
good night.

the awesomely ficken end.

break them dicks to sticks.

2008-08-11T23:27:00.002+08:00

sorry, i haven`t been posting new updates about my oh-so-boring life.
it`s my qualifying week.
so i`ll be busy.
won`t be here much.

; jakee.

ps. lif, i`m sorry. i never meant for it to become like this. =/

i`m unfaithful to all those buried in me.

2008-08-09T00:02:00.003+08:00

girl: father, i have sinned by calling a man son of a bitch.

priest: why did you call him by that wretched phrase?

girl: because he touched my hand.

priest: (he touched her hand) there`s no need to call him that.

girl: and he touched my breast.

priest: (he touched her breast) there`s no need to call him that.

girl: and he undressed me.

priest: (he undressed her) there`s no need to call him that.

girl: and he put his you know what in me.

priest: (he put his you know what in her) like that?

girl: YES, FATHER! YES, FATHER! YES, FATHER!

priest: (after a few minutes) there`s no need calling him that.

girl: but he has AIDS.

priest: THAT SON OF A BITCH!

ahaha. nice onee. :D

this post is dedicated to sii tinggi cuz ya tinggi. <-- apaan. baie.

stupid jua ehh. them neighbours karaoke-ing. buruk banar. it`s 12+ for god sake! shaddap! mentang-mentang anak mu kawin. AAAARRRRGGGHHH!

the awesomely lame end.

; jakee.

ass-whoring male female.

2008-08-08T23:48:00.001+08:00

mamasémamasamamaqumsa.
look at what i can do with my feet.

friday night is so shitty. live vravishly, beb.

today : woke up at 6.30am cuz my amah knocked on my door. she was looking for my sister but i said she was in parents room. then, i slept til 8am. i was chatting with baz and also spying arah my neighbour`s son. X) after oggling for about 0.13131313seconds, i took a shower and got ready for tuition. for breakfast, i ate cornflakes with soya bean milk. *note to all readers; I`M ALLERGIC TO ~~MILK.~~ but the soya bean yang my mum beli yang kurang manis, which taste like water, so i pinched a little bit of sugar in it. then, the cornflake was heaven. 8)
went to tuition at 9.15am. addmaths was okaaay. i got the highest mark for the last test! yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! <-- kes sakai. --,"
at 12pm, my mum picked me up and told me to buy chicken at SKH. sana the chicken half price. so layan lahh. boring. no hot people to look at. wawawawa.
i didn`t eat til 8pm. was having a bad mood. then, my dad knocked on my door. he wanted to borrow my calculator and he told me he`s going to kb with my mum and aniqah (my youngest sister.) so after 9hours doing nothing, (tried to study but can`t concentrate) here i am blogging.

this monday is our written exam. and i think i`m not afraid. i don`t have the slightest feeling of being worry or anxious. i don`t why.

AND, i just noticed that my legs are pale. like pale vravish. oh god! i`m dead! *slaps self. i take it back. i felt that.

AND, the best place to shuffle is in a squash court. seriously, i tried it yesterday and it was FUN. B) skill banar ku shuffle ahh. woooooh handal me ani. shuffle + squash = squffle. X)

i miss snickers<3

the awesomely terrific end.

; jakee.

can`t wait to be your cousin.

2008-08-08T00:28:00.003+08:00

this post is for a dear friend. i would like to thank you for all the advice and guidance that you`ve given me the past four years. the times in ugama were the best. we had our ups and downs with teacher rokiah. I can still remember you in the big tudung planet. harhar. but you were smaller that time. both of us were the only human beings in ugama who were lost in our own fantasies cuz the art of ugama never really puncture our brains deeply. i still remember your reaction when i told you that i was with sii kaling. well, you didn`t give any reaction as you were already expecting it. pfft. harhar. i`m really grateful that god gave us a chance for us to be friends and an opportunity to be close. the memories we`ve had will always be sealed in my head. and i mean it. hehe. and i`m sorry if i ever were to hurt you till you piss your pants and cry on your mum`s lap. i didn`t mean it (or i did) cuz i was born mean. i like your cousin. after you finish your time in uk, he'll be mineee. (exaggerating here.) i would like to congratulate you, again, and may the best of luck to you as the destination infront of you will be an awesome one and i won`t be there much since we will be 100, gajilien, gajilien miles away from each other. but i'll always be online. so don`t hesitate if you need a friend to chat with. i`ll listen, even if means waking up in the cold, dawn.

i know, we were sharing our thoughts on how things are gonna change when you`re gone. and i know, you`re crying now. I took that time to post this. it`s not really that explainable but this is how i think about you.
you are one of the closest friend i ever had and some of the best times in life consist of you, izzah and sya. without you guys, i don`t think this world would evolve properly.

Congratulation, Nurbazilah @ Siti Raihanah Tarip. i`ll cherish you forever and i`ll miss every part of you. your jokes. your lame talks. your oh-so-bangang look. And this time, i mean everything.

forget mw. find a hot english man there and get things pumpin. remember us and never forget. i'll miss bradley, too. things won`t be the same with you absent. and also muizzah and sya. i thought that it won`t hurt that much but i guess i was wrong. losing a friend hurts and i guess being friends with you benefits me alot.
be strong and remember, uncle tan (sultan) is proud of you. X)

love, kym. xoxo. 8')

let`s make out with a tank of violence.

2008-08-07T23:16:00.009+08:00

WOOOOOOOOOO!
MY HUNDREDTH POST!
YEAH! <-- oooooh. sakai me ani. ehexehexehex. bimbo vravish me ani. like daaaaa. wawawa. -___-"

today : nothing happened. just the same. woke up early today. at 5.30am. before that, i slept at 3.30am. and i was awoken by my mobile, somebody sent me a message and it was at 4.23am. then, i snoozed back.
came to school five minutes early. haha. satisfaction. then, i went tarus to murder sii tinggi about a particular thing. yeah, baby. i`m gonna slishslash sii tinggi.
I SWEAR, TINGGI, IF YOU TELL THIS SECRET TO ANYBODY, I WILL CUT YOUR TONGUE OUT AND FEED IT TO THE PIGS. AND I`LL BURN YOUR ASS INFRONT OF THE MALL AND SEND THE REMAINS TO SII BLACK. WAWAWAWAWA. <-- kes mental. ehex ehex. --,"

amaths was boring. the usual crap. all we did were past year paper yang i did in tuition. after that physics, but i totally forgot that we had physics today. LIKE OMAGAD! BIMBO ME ANI EHHH! maths, lily was absent. so free period. english was sii albish. pfft. negative sensation was emerging in me during that class cuz i was bored, dead and half-asleep.

then, we had CCA. YEAH, THE TIME WHERE WE WATCH HOT MEN TAKE OFF THEIR CLOTHES, LOOKS GAY AND SCRATCH EACH OTHERS BACKS. <-- oh shit, this is the men`s sauna room. sorry.

my cca`s squash. it`s enjoyable. i guess. haha. ada our master jedi toyol time squash. may the force be with you. not the gravitational force. you`re too sensitive when it comes to the gravitational force. i know. it`s hard, baby. but i`ll always be there, and my classmates, laughing to make you feel better. <-- the hell. shit.

After squash, i changed to the brown cargo pants and went back to school cuz we had malay class. after class, i had nothing to do. but i noticed that i was jumping from one friend to another. first, sii nat nat aka hariisah. then, sii faiqa. then, tasya. then, zimah. and it all happened in less than two hours. wow, baby. i`m so promiscuous. yeahhh. GiLeRzZ HaNdAlZ mE aNe eHzZ LiKe VrAvIsHlY WaWaWa. VaNyAk FeMiNaTzZz QuUu. tErHaRu QuU eHhHzZ.

yesterday : we had our chemistry practical. shit. it was okay. but i think i got my cations wrong. -______-" shit. i didn`t give my mobile to the teacher at first cuz i 'left' it in my bag. but during quarantine, datang tia sii piv with her never-so-nice hair saying 'aiya, beb. me so high, i want hot men. i`m fifty gajilien years old and i`m still single. look at the fats on my thigh. sexy yoooo.' <-- translation, she needed help with the projector cuz ya wanted us to look at the forbidden kingdom, where my so called uncle, jet li, acted in that movie. and so, time sii piv bagi lapdance arah sii *h***, she saw the basket full of loot and took it with her and planned to shove it all in her bra. *shivers. but she changed her mind when she remembered she forgot to change her pantyhose since last month. she left the loot and told us to write our names saja. after quarantine, we went to bio. but nor chua nada. stalked sii snickers<33. I kinda did some stupid stuff when he passed me. shit. vLuShInG Qu LiKe vRaViShLy. awwwhh. chiyuuuuutzZzZz. The whole class went to the library but we soon got bored n went out to enjoy nature since it was about to rain.

i`ll stop here saja ehhhh. tired me udaah.

the awesomely cool end.

; jakee.

it`s a matter of jumping off the building.

2008-08-06T23:39:00.004+08:00

HELLOOOOOOOOOO!
:)
sorry for not updating. couldn`t go online due to my stupid annual fee. damn you dst.

it`s been like, what, exactly 24 days, yoooooooo. gilerz like vravishly ja tohhh. skillz kaliahzzz.

update. update. update.

snickers<333

these are some of the things that had happened:

` i am sooooooooo totally over sii damiit! i`m bored of midgets. pfft.

` my mum bought me two new sofa`s, baby. like ragadzz kaliahzz.

` happy belated birthday to sii khaliilah dolrani aka sii flying dutchman.

` i have a new haircut but but but i feel like there`s this inner voice saying it`s ugly.

` i`m not pregnant! YES! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! <-- ahaha. --,"

` i think jack the ripper cuts off people`s nipple and use them as pretty little eyes for cute little teddy bears. <-- COOOOOOOOOOOOOOL!

` happy belated birthday to hjh nurul hazimah.

` i found something that`s weirder than weird, which is sii tinggi aka sii siti nur`atiqah, yo.

` i am, what some of my friends said, a qualified poklen. it means i can be a poklen, but i`m not a poklen, tinggi. _l_

` happy belated birthday to azim tinggi.

` i kinda lost my beliefs in somethings which i, myself, cannot explain.
it`s like i outgrew those beliefs due to anger and stubborn-ness. i know it`s a sin and i`m going to hell for this.

` i still like snickers. (;

` ian thinks me and rifaie look a like. like siblings look-a-like. this is the part where i go all crazy and berserk. and NO, WE DON`T LOOK A LIKE EVEN THE SLIGHTEST BIT.

`happy belated birthday to khairul hamizan.

` i think the ms youth iniative should provide the girls toilet with pregnancy test pads and the boys toilet with fertility pads so they can, y`know, check. 'oh, god! I`m not pregnant! Pad says negative! Take that, president bush! woooo! ketara ko mandul, buiiii!' <-- apaaaaaaaaaan.

` congrats to cousin, djin majid, for succeeding in getting a job as a steward. 'coffee or tea, sir?' i salute you, mahn. *salutes.

` niccolas has a nice arse, mahn. oh, so cawer me leh nya.

` ehhh. uncle jay is having an affair with a lot of men. i respect you, beb. promiscuous, baby. *thumbs up.

` piv still has ugly hair. my god. and she`s single. like oh jealous me kan ya atoh.

` bonza kinda 'pfft-ed' in the face last few weeks. like gilerz. vevau vravish bah. like vevau cigup. now we call him by the name 'pfft dadde' <-- i`m exaggerating.

` albish still thinks i`m sick. <-- WAHAHAHA.

` my little beloved kitten, maguira, was called by my dad, an abbreviation of his name, maggi. nama lawa-lawa ada. skati menukar.

` si-M aka boyfriend sii ze is soooooooo chiyuuuutz. X)

` we`re having our qualifying exams now. so it`s like fo`shiznitzz.

` sii cooteo is still hot, babyyyy.

` rifaie keeps pinching me. shit you.

` banyak-banyak warna, warna apa yang bunyinya cam kaling?
hi-tambi. ehex ehex ehex. <--- OH SHIT LAMEEEEEEE.

` ze owes me half a lap-dance.

` me chayanxxx like vravishly like him.

' rie owes me an ass-spanking session. *winkwink.

` thank youuuu, chaaaaaaaaa<3 ;D

i guess sampai sini saja aku blog ehhh.

death to all noobies.

snickers<333

the awesomely fucking end.

; jakee.

relieve me from life.

2008-07-13T15:43:00.001+08:00

abso-not into wanting to update.
:s

yesterday : i hung out with my awesome, (and one of the friend that i LOVE the most. honestly.) farah, and sii zimah. i miss hanging with them, especially farah. =/ sorry, been too busy. and our timetable inda clash wahh. <-- shit, i love you, farah. X)
so many things to talk about. we talked about sii zombie. that freak is sooooo annoying. like vRaViShLy. *shivers. she walks funny. she even talks funny. humans. aren`t really perfect. but she has too many faults. <-- not exaggerating a zombie`s position.

she`s back.
but let`s not destroy this moment.

snickers.
(:
saw him during my malay class. was expecting it. but was not expecting her to be there. at least, they were not communicating.
LAY OFF, BITCH. HE`S MINEEE. _|_

last saturday : i hung out with khaliilah aka flying dutchman and zirah. when we were infront of the pintu audi yang sebalah water fountain thing atu, khal said 'kym, gian ku kan menari. bah. nyanyikan lagu hindustan, kym. make me move.' me, dumbfounded and distracted, did not know any hindustan, besides english, malay, kedayan, french and greek, looked at her, opened my mouth, with my awesome oh-shit-what-am-i-doing look and monotone said 'porenge, porenge, porenge.'

bon anniversaire.

2008-07-13T15:22:00.000+08:00

happy birthday, cousin gay ku, ahmad rifaie abd malek.
:D

in cheap perfume, douse yourself.

2008-07-11T23:19:00.001+08:00

i`m beginning to surface this feeling of not wanting to blog.
yes. the skeptic feeling. surface and emerge, it goes. and i guess now, it surfaces, for me to let go of being an active blogger. <-- translation 'baie, kraja rumah ku banyak. nada masa ku kan update lagi. malas kuu.'

so i`ll just blog for a lil bit. about some things that i feel i wanna talk about.

fo'shiznit, baby, ala your nipple.
blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

school is a ~~stress bomb~~. everytime i leave the car, head for my ~~beloved~~, MA5E i have this urge of wanting to just... <-- nevermind, i`m letting the school off this time. i`ll be talking about you...next time. _|_

so, news flash. me, aka the awesomely cool me, is not in ~~LOVE~~ with anybody.
YEAY.
but i do ~~LIKE~~

sii damiit somehow was erased. i guessed i got bored. bored of waiting for a miracle. i hate miracles. ~~miracles are as bitchy as karma.~~ pfft.
who needs him. life`s better off without that cute, little thing. (i still think he`s cute. guess it`s the cupid effect.)

my eye candy is my want now.

EHEX EHEX EHEX.

sii eye candy aka snickers, cutee. but then, i will not let any cupid`s arrow pierce my heart now, besides crushing on a heart, as the big exams are coming.

my gay cousin, rifaie aka ex aka bestfriend aka the gp mate of sii snickers, is gonna have his birthday soon. and i`m stuck figuring out what present to give him. :s

oh gosh. economics homeworks a drag. i gots to stop here. it`s nearing 12, so i got to sleep and wake at 3am to do my homework.

later, buizZz.

the awesomely lame end.

; jakee.

douse myself in cheap perfume.

2008-07-09T18:54:00.001+08:00

so it`s been like, what, five days i haven`t logged in.
stupid computer won`t work so i depend on the internet by only with my mobile. so whenever the expiry date comes up, i have to act all gay and nice to my dad or suffer the absence of blogging and watching porn.
*sigh.

and today, i present to you, me, myself and the only awesome of the awesomely cool me, which is me, blogging again, and being active as an active blogger. <-- da pak?

schools a boredom. like total boredom.

we had our assembly today and again our mommy was poking our asses on how to sing the national athem properly like we`re green ic`s, not yellow ic`s.
well, thanks, mommy. for being such an inspiration to us bruneians, who don`t really give a damn about our ic`s. do you want my ic? it`s a token of love from me, as you are my beloved. _|_

well, i guess i`ll stop here and blog later. again.

remember, aliens are around us. <-- shit.

the awesomely fucking end.

; jakee.

move the temperature higher, baby.

2008-07-04T07:38:00.006+08:00

this was a conversation between four cousins who wished we were the ruler of oh-the-never-existed-world.

ruuu says:
BABEEEEEEEEE! :D

ruuu says:
morning.

jakejake ` says:
WTF?

jakejake ` says:
ITS SIX IN THE MORNING, BISH?

jakejake ` says:
ARE YOU CRAZY?

ruuu says:
nada sajaaa. xp

ruuu says:
mornings are soooo boring.

ruuu says:
xDD

jakejake ` says:
and skalinya youre bored so you click on me??

jakejake ` says:
damnit. baiee. _|_

jakejake ` says:
mana abang mu?

ruuu says:
ya tidur sebalah ku. harum ah. his hair.

ruuu says:
tuuu, rai online!

ruuu says:
invite!

rai, ohh. says:
BAIE SAPA INVITE AWAL PAGI ANIKAN??

jakejake ` says:
si ruu. gila ahh.

joshjosh ; says:
yeah! aku kana invite.

jakejake ` says:
whats so good kana invite during awal pagi and kana kacau during tidur?

ruuu says:
well, your email stated online. so aku tagur laah.

jakejake ` says:
baie. ya stated online cuz malam aku ada tdc time tidur so ya sign in sendiri.

jakejake ` says:
buduhh.

rai, ohh. says:
awu ehhh. sumpah-sumpah ya anak baie ani.

joshjosh ; says:
ehh! Aku join kamu sumpah adi ku! BAIE KOOOOO.

ruuu says:
aiiiii. gto my mum ni. xP

joshjosh ; says:
apa niii. baru kana ucap skit sudah tia ya kan gto mama.

joshjosh ; says:
bidaaaa ehhh.

jakejake ` says:
awuuu.

rai, ohh. says:
lets call him a name.

rai, ohh. says:
that suits his 'oh aku inda suka kana ucap' attitude.

jakejake ` says:
i know a name!

jakejake ` says:
its a perfect fit!

joshjosh ; says:
apaaaaa?

jakejake ` says:
lets call him pussy. (;

rai, ohh. says:
HAHAHA. NICE~

joshjosh ; says:
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.

joshjosh ; says:
*highfive.

jakejake ` says:
HAHAHA. *h5.

jakejake ` says:
ohhh, soo chiyuuutzz.

rai, ohh. says:
mana tia si ruu ahh?

joshjosh ; says:
mandi ya jap.

joshjosh ; says:
lets talk about something before he comes back.

rai, ohh. says:
baaah. So, apa ada?

jakejake ` says:
nada. boring much.

joshjosh ; says:
SI AKII ADA BOYFRIEND YOOOOOOO.

joshjosh ; says:
hahahahahahahahahahahaha.

rai, ohh. says:
APA EHH? AND YOU DIDNT TELL ME??

jakejake ` says:
MANADAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

jakejake ` says:
HES NOT MY BOYFRIEND BAAAAAAH BAIEEEEEEE.

jakejake ` says:
baie. poklen ahh.

rai, ohh. says:
BUT, STILL! You have an ADMIRER.

rai, ohh. says:
and thats GOOD. *thumbs up.

jakejake ` says:
please im soooo not into him.

jakejake ` says:
like *rolls eyes.

jakejake ` says:
poklen~ _|_

rai, ohh. says:
cmon. it cant be that bad.

rai, ohh. says:
some poklens are nice and good looking.

joshjosh ; says:
her boyfriend has a red bush as a hair.

jakejake ` says:
*vomits.

rai, ohh. says:
ohhhhhhh.

rai, ohh. says:
OH MY GOD, KII!

rai, ohh. says:
MUN YA PROPOSE, REJECT! JGN DULI! REJECT TARUS!

rai, ohh. says:
GILAAA ATU BIDAA.

jakejake ` says:
haha. -_-"

joshjosh ; says:
wow. atu banar. over reaction tuu.

jakejake ` says:
i mean, seriously i will never ever ever ever like him!

jakejake ` says:
NEVER, BISH!

joshjosh ; says:
thats the spirit, kii!

joshjosh ; says:
*thumbs up.

rai, ohh. says:
poklens. ewwww.

rai, ohh. says:
im disgusted of them.

jakejake ` says:
they are the vomit in the toilet bowl.

jakejake ` says:
disgusting and desperately needs to thrown away.

jakejake ` says:
even if i like him. i dont want him.

joshjosh ; says:
why?

rai, ohh. says:
napa?

jakejake ` says:
cuz hes tall. im not into tall guys. (:

jakejake ` says:
i prefer guys like sii damiit or cooteo.

joshjosh ; says:
oh cmon kii. that damit guy is just about your ear.

joshjosh ; says:
i dont think he`ll be beneficial to you.

rai, ohh. says:
yeahh, kii. i mean, if that guy were to know, and if he likes you too, he wont wanna be in a relationship with a girl whos taller than him.

rai, ohh. says:
but its the feelings that matters. (;

jakejake ` says:
thanks rai.

jakejake ` says:
for understanding me.

jakejake ` says:
*cries gayishly.

joshjosh ; says:
how long have you like this damit guy?

jakejake ` says:
liked him since form3.

jakejake ` says:
the other guys ive had been with were just distractions.

jakejake ` says:
for me to forget him.

joshjosh ; says:
ohhhhh.

rai, ohh. says:
so, what are you gonna do about it?

jakejake ` says:
EHHH, SII RUU AHH. TDC TIA.

me feat josh and rai said:
SHIT!

haha. Antah ehh. paloy rasanya membuat ani.

the awesomely antah end.

; jakee.

i left my conscience pressed.

2008-07-01T23:31:00.003+08:00

i developed this superb feeling for this particular person since march this year. it was unexpected, yes, cuz this feeling was also present few years back. but back then, i was still just a ~~maggot~~, in other words a junior who would fall in love with anybody. i was still ~~stupid~~ and my feelings were for any guys that i feel i wanna like, without even thinking who or what are they. stupidity always intercepted me. but i guess going through all those temptation and ups and downs in relationships made me more, in adult terms, ~~mature~~ ahaha.
i didn`t care about guys when i was still in my level one maggot stage. i mean, pfft, who needs em. we girls be fine. but, a guy caught a hold of my heart and i soon fell in love. but things were different back then. dulu, it was all about being the ~~hunted.~~ attracting different aged men so they could suffocate us with their love. being all pedofile and famous at the same time. because what? ~~cuz of sucking older men`s balls?~~ <-- shit, i wasn`t in this group. i was just explaining this crap.
HAHA. i`m enjoying this.
i was a ~~'stare-er'.~~ i looked for a prey from a far. i don`t make moves like some sluts would (eg molesting men from behind. harhar.) i would just emancipate myself with the surroundings and look. yes. ~~LOOKSTARESEEWATCH.~~
some of my friends even gesture me to make a move. 'confess to that man, bish. c`mon, what`sit to lose?' my dignity. my respect for that person. my pride. so i `d rather not.
yes. I do ~~WANT~~ that person. but in economics, wants are just those to satisfy our desire. i mean, why waste time on something i can`t have while you have other stuff to think about.
that was when i was in the level one maggot stage. now i`m a senior. a new person. a being left off from the maggot stage to become a more better person.
but the topic love always made the noob seniors suffer. or the later stage of maggot.
i suffered a lot. some hurts. some suicidal. yes. it makes us feel in the seventh heaven.

(suddenly, i don`t know what i`m talking about cuz i`m lost and tired.)

to conclude all the crap, i am in love with this person. usually i am able to let that person go. very easily. but i can see this situation is different. once i let him go, he`ll be gone. ~~FOREVER.~~ :( which is so heartbreaking. not like the others. pfft. them. i`ll be able to look at them cuz they`re in the same batch or a year older. but when we`re talking about a someone in the last batch of the year, ~~it shreds my heart.~~

sii damiit.
:')
*cries.

i`m letting this off. i can`t stand the tears piercing my eyes. so goodnight.

the awesomely sad end.

; jakee.

bon anniversaire.

2008-07-01T23:10:00.001+08:00

happy birthday, sofiah kassim.
:)

when boredom strikes, a fart can be heard.

2008-06-30T22:58:00.001+08:00

HELLO, ~~SCHOOL!~~
HELLO, ~~HOMEWORK!~~
HELLO, ~~EXTRACLASSES!~~
HELLO, ~~PASTYEARPAPERS!~~
HELLO, ~~ALBERT~~
HELLO, ~~AISEHARISAHIVY!~~ <3

school reopenes today. whoopdedoo. _l_

tonight`s a boredom. twas raining heavily an hour ago. WAI DA PAK DID YEW STOP RAINING, HUH? i want the smell of fresh rainwater. that utterly weird yet unique smell, somehow, brings me peace and tranquility. ahh. the sovereignity of heart surrounded with only peace and harmony. bless our god.

i saw sii damiit<3 in school. and yeah, he totally made my day. due to his presence, which miracally inspired me, i felt AGAIN at peace. <-- majal bah at peace ku ani. macam inda pernah tenang bah.

he`s my heartbreaker and i love him for that. his heart-breaking and heart-throbing skills made me realise that ~~loving someone hurts and hurting is just a way of showing you love someone so badly.~~

i love you, damiit. (;

shaken and stirred from the holidays and entered the biology lab. the first question asked was =

nor chua : why isn`t brunei affected by malaria eventhough we are surrounded with countries suffering from malaria.

me : cuz the mosquitoes are disgusted of brunei`s poklen population. <-- which i answered in my head.

i finished my amaths homework during chemistry tuition. and that was rather shocking cuz my hands been itching to write or calculate something from amaths. weird. x_x"

sii damiit<333
i will, one day, tell you about my feelings. the feelings that i held so deeply. the feelings which holds a thousand secrets that will only be revealed after you truly open my heart. <-- 'baie, matitah ko,' i said to myself.

~~i cried for you.~~ and i didn`t mean to.

nights, fellow bloggers. sweet dreams to you all.

the awesomely fucking end.

; jakee.

ps. zeeeeee. you were absent tadi. :/ boring nada kau.
pps. i still feel so sad and uneasy.

i`ve got superpowers! a power to burn people`s asses!

2008-06-29T22:41:00.000+08:00

FINALLY!
i found my homework and did it in like, what, fifteen minutes? now, that`s just a piece of bish, i tells you.
so spent my last day of holidays, pfft, watching a movie. kungfu panda, to be exact. calee gilerz cetanya. sii tai lung chiyuutz time ya damiit! XD
first of all, i woke up at 9am, and my sister was knocking on my door like crazy. i thought the house was on fire kah, someone accident kah, my grandmother died kah, my cat beranak kah. panya my mum kan bawa liat wayang. skadar. so, at 10.45, we went to Qlapzz Mallz to watch kungfu panda sana. But the movie started at 10. after that, we headed for the mall. we were 15mins late so that guy yang keraja arah ticket movie thing gave us half-price for the tickets. the movie was ansome. <-- new english word. equals with cool.
after that, i went to the kadai yang di luar the cinema, they were having a final sale and ALL ITEMS 50% OFF! Like OMAGAD! the barang sana lawa-lawa! but i only bought a head-band with gold polka-dots.
then, my physics tuition teacher messaged me and told me class was cancelled. i was like 'okay. class cancel. big deal. more time to finish my homework.' then, my friend messaged me and said 'eh, later sii-quiet-a-lot will be having amaths replacement during our physics period.' and i`m like 'FAK! PHYSICS CLASS CANCEL KALIAH. BAIEEE.'
after me tantruming outside the mall, and saw some pu2s, we went home and i slept til 7pm. finished my homework and slept some more.
not bad for the last day of holiday.
HAHA.

oh, sii-damiit. i can`t wait to see you tomorrow.
i miss you. (;

the awesomely ansome end.

; jakee

i want him in my pocket.

2008-06-29T00:10:00.008+08:00

yes. i`ve been dreading these past few weeks. i mean, especially during the holidays, that i WANT school.

but then, since it`s the last day of the holiday, and the heartthrob is easing away as the clock ticks its way to school time, and there`s this thought that destroyed this beautiful caricature ; i forgot to close the toilet seat this morning. =0
hence, the real story is HOMEWORK.*thousands of different screams are featured in the background of this word.

i forgot where i put them. i mean, seriously, english and malay homework. no big deal. but where are you, you son of a bish, waste of fakeng time.

so, let us put this aside and breath. *inhale. don`t forget to exhale, dammit.

last two nights, malam jumat, my family held a tahlil/doa selamat for the dead. *a moment of silent, please. both of my grandfathers and grandmother. may you three be in peace. amin.
i wasn`t really interested in all the cookings, the setting ups, the cucul, the orang thailand yang usai kem and other fo'shiznits. i cared for sii-mah-faken-hots. <-- fak, bunyi macam cool, skalinya di eja, cawir usulnya.

sii-mah-faken-hots adalah cousin tiri ku dan dia dikategorikan sebagai salah satu makhluk tuhan yang paling hangat. *fak, angau.

HE`S PERFECT! XDDD
vAiE bOiiS, y0u Da HoTz. aHaKzZ.

my cousins banyak yang datang. but sii-mah-faken-hots yang paling perfect. sii-oh-cawer-but-okay was cute too. but ya kaling. (--,") as in hitam. HAHA. sii-emo-tapi-inda pun cute but he`s tall and kaling.

so i broke out a convo with sii-mah-faken-hots punya sister, tiqs.

Tiqs : sapa kau cari, ki?
me : diam, bah, baie. aku mencari abang mu bah, baie.
Tiqs : abang ku? apa kau mau buat arah ya, ki?
me : ehh, shaddap you. abang mu hot wah, baie. baie bah abang mu atu.
Tiqs : abang ku baie? (inda ya pandai paham.)
me : abang mu baie sal ya hot bah, baie.
josh : eh, akii, mama mu...
me : anak baie lari tah ko bah. kan meliat anak baie orang lain pun inda dapat kah, baie? mati tah wah, baie.
(sorry for the misusage of words guys. he was too hot. got me haywired. XPP)

oh yeah! sii-exotic asked me a question about snickers and mars. she told me to pick which one`s better than the other. honestly, babe, i think both of them taste the same what. the only thing is i`m addicted to snickers more than mars. HEHE.

sii damiit<3
i miss you, you oh so cute thing you. X3

thoughts been flying through my head again. now thoughts with words and pictures. like weeeee. *clears throat. words like 'so how will sii damiit<3 look like after the holiday?', 'has he grown any taller?', 'will i see him first tomorrow morning?' or the usual 'baie, meliat mua sii haiseh dgn her half-sized twin, harisah. and their half-blood cousin, ivy. wonder if she got a new haircut?'

told josh about sii-foklen, ehex. and this was our short convo =

josh10 says:
he WHAT?

jakee // thirteen says:
likes me.

josh10 says:
mun ya propose, cana?

jakee // thirteen says:
DULI! REJECT!

jakee // thirteen says:
sii foklen cala hantap.

jakee // thirteen says:
baik plg ku kawin dgn teacher yang fakety fak fak blaaah. (guess who?)

josh10 says:
jan catu ehh.

josh10 says:
sabar. sabar. ingat tuhan.

jakee // thirteen says:
jangantah ko alim ani, dang.

josh10 says:
mbaaah. _l_

jakee // forfor says:
i dont want to like him.

jakee // forfor says:
i will NEVER like him. NEVER!

jakee // forfor says:
cuz i love sii damiit. <-- ooh! a confession! call the press!

jakee // forfor says:
baie.

josh10 says:
just... hold on.

jakee // forfor says:
whaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiii?

jakee // forfor says:
*weeps gayishly.

josh10 says:
okaaay. mental.

josh10 says:
cemana usul poklen atu? Hot?

jakee // forfor says:
he has a red bush on his head.

jakee // forfor says:
sexay, eyy?

josh10 says:
-___-"

josh10 says:
okaaay.

josh10 says:
pheeeeewiiiiit.

jakee // forfor says:
gilerz. hotz ehh. turned on ku.

josh10 says:
you made a good point.

jakee // forfor says:
yeahh. like daaa~

josh10 says:
i don`t want my nephews and nieces to have a red bush on their heads!

josh10 says:
i mean, its better for our family to have bulu kaki tabal than red bushes on our heads.

josh10 says:
='0

jakee // forfor says:
kan mati gila baie.

wow. look at the time. 1:02 in the morning. and here i am, still awake, updating my blog, chatting to tiqz and thinking of sii damiit.

damiit<33
loves you.
:)

good morning and sweet dreams.

the awesomely fucking end.

; jakee.

where is your boy tonight?

2008-06-25T22:45:00.009+08:00

so tonight, after being encouraged by rie, finally, i found my actual brain to resume on blogging and fly to barbietopia.

life`s been....icky. <-- by which i mean boring and shizholes much. too many things had happened during the holidays. sii exotic, sii prattle-a-lot and sii stare-a-lot (by means of ze, rie and cha), i mish you all vravishly. hati qu verkechamuk memikir kamu.
tak dafat qu menunggu tuk vuqa skul. aqu lopxx kamu smua.
ehex.

sooo, since social life is being locked away from me and the key being swallowed whole by my parents, after they shared and cut it to pieces for dinner, the only place i semi-socialize, now is during tuition. being so ecstatic and kiddish there, besides me in the shower, hell of things been freakin me out this lately.
like mc hammer freak.

since it`s the holidays, i won`t be meeting sii damiit<3, which is so heartbreaking, eventhough he is my heartbreaker. so i was insearch for a substitute to ease my heartthrob, ONLY for the holidays, and so i THINK i found ONE in tuition. (note to sii exotic, vukan sii foklen ah. vaie vanar toh.)

not really a substitute. HAHA. like he`s more to an eye-candy. like the hot cooteo. seriously, i don`t know what i`m talking about. but he`s actually cute. (vravishly. ahakz) i ain`t got a nick for him, yet. for now, it`s sii quiet-a-lot. pacaah.

sii-quiet-a-lot is okay lahh. he`s considered the above average. meaning cutecute. haha. but then, i never really spoke to him, besides goodbye-ing him. but he`s okay. but pendiam. <-- duh. mun udah namanya sii-quiet-a-lot.
so very much a cute dork. ehex. so gay ehh. but sii damiit<3 is alot cuter than sii-quiet-a-lot. uhukz. vanar vaa.

now, the latest, sii-poklen aka foklen aka brunei`s cala aka heZ n0t RaGaDzZzZzZ aka sii-malastah-ku-ingau. a tuition mate of mine in chemistry class. i got to say brunei`s poklen population are increasing. drastically. it also means people are getting more dumber. (note : i don`t like this guy. FoKLeN aHhZz aHakZz) truth is i don`t like. i loathe. i deteste. i hate. mentally, physically, sexually, gayishly (the hell?) and most of all, heartly. <-- cala.

and he likes me. (this news is so shocking. please give a moment of silence.) *silence. <-- baie. macam ada orang mati tah pulang.

and i`m writing this in the blog cuz rie and cha told me to do so.

honestly, i HATE him. i HATE poklen-ians. i HATE their LaNgUaNgE yAnGz CalAzZ aTo. i HATE them being wannabes. I JUST SO EFFIN HATE HIM. his ride is so, what the poklen-ians would say, RaGaDzZz. KiJaNgzZz KaLiAhzZzZz KeWlzZzZz.

sii-quiet-a-lot is waaaaaaaaay cuter than sii-foklen. <-- i`d say that`s a no-brainer, said rie.

but like what some very lost and educated might always say 'what happens in tuition, stays in tuition.'

damiit<333

sii exotic knighted me few weeks ago. 'i thub thee the most important of all. the vulgar one.' translation 'kym, ko vulgar.' i`m touched. it was so official. it was when the sun was high above our heads. on the telephone. stinky cuz of our morning breath. the static on the phone. cool-ness. most of all, no swish-swash knives or old stinkin women which calls themselves as queen of that-oh-so-lame-country. *HAHAHA. shiznits.

time`s running out. i gots stuff to do. shizhole.

haha. later.

the awesomely boring end.

; jakee

i wanna bish you out, wumahn.

2008-06-25T16:05:00.001+08:00

i miss the guys.
:)

i heartly endorse the guys that i love cuz i love them as they will always be loved by me who loves them.

i miss them.

but apaan. haha. kes boring.

the awesomely fucking end.

; jakee.

steal one, rape one free.

2008-06-24T22:59:00.002+08:00

sorry, my fellow do0ders. for not updating. seriously, i`ve been busy and been slacking my arse off.

so updates.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
*thinks hard til brain cells explodes.

well, during the holidays, the amount of food consumption per day is increasing. i don`t know why and how much.

this is my yesterday`s menu :

breadfast : me and two of my cousins, josh and rai, ate three bowls of ice-cream and drank coke and sprite. josh had a brain-freeze so he was dead for like an hour and a half before we called my amah to harass him.

brunch : we were hungry again so we ate another bowl of ice-cream, three packets of oreo and lots of water. i was really dehydrated due to the oreo but it was nyummy.

lunch : it`s the holidays, so i cook lunch. and yes, i can see you with your 'i can`t believe you can cook' look. the usual three meal on the table. two protein and veggies with rice. josh commented the chicken was a little spicy. rai said i should be a chef but i declined her idea. haha.

afternoon snacks : after fighting evil with my fellow cousins, breaking bones and hearing wannabe guardmen scream like pussies in PS3, we devoured six tins of pringles. i like the baked potato one. deee-licious.

dinner : the usual, a type of cereal, and last night was froot loops. And NOOO, i did not ate mine with milk! (EURRGGHH!) i had my cereal with the decent soya bean. my cousins ate theirs with milk. and after of two hours of josh, showing off and dreaming of his face being on cereal boxes, although i prefer it on pregnancy test boxes, we went to sleep.

midnight snack : a nasi katok. YES. brunei`s number one favourite, not to mention killer of healthy diet. there was nothing to eat since we devoured every simple snack we had, so we went to the nearest nasi katok stall. josh bought three and said he was born with two stomach. and i added no brains to that.

dusk snack : we didn`t eat. we just drank. drank coke and sprite. what i mean coke and sprite is we mix em and drank em. and sprite is a catalyst for me, so i was high. high and hyper. wahahaha.

and yeah, the cycle goes on and on. unhealthy food. bad. but i just can`t resist. hunger rate is also an increase when it comes to the holidays.
fak.

the awesomely fucking end.

; jakee.

Some say money buy all those who dreams.

2008-06-24T09:26:00.000+08:00

i haven`t updated much.
too lazy, yoooo.
hehe.
enjoy the last week of holiday.
:)

; jakee.

from every tits in the world.

2008-06-16T23:41:00.001+08:00

hey, guys. i`ll be inactive for a few weeks so don`t worry i`ll be back. *insert arnold swhathisname tone.

ps. ze, cha, rie. i`ll miss not chatting with you guys.
pps. to the poklens reading this blog, fUcK yEw, uHuKzZ, bItChEs.
ppps. to the local n00bs from the city of n00brians, go suck balls, n00bies. *middle finger.
ppps. i love you, sii damiit. (;

the awesomely fucking beginning.

; Jakee Li Jak-Yi. <-- bish, look! my full chinese and pre-english chainese name!

i dare say, i do love you.

2008-06-16T23:24:00.001+08:00

yes, fellow friends.

as an ordinary human, i find my simplicity as a alto-relievo. i maybe an anathema, at it` the animadversion that matters. yes. it is. blather, i say. you won`t even notice that i look so cadaverous.

i am voluptious towards this being. and i have this avarice feeling in myself, evolving, so murderous, yet so beautiful to settle.

begorra, i moan. you make zeitgeist to another fantasy, so whimsical yet so void. he maybe the root of my happiness, zealot. he looks like a whipster, but notice that his looks has an ambiguity meaning?

a huis clos, i watch him. he express no alack. but no amity ever surfaced, which brokened me from within.

vivat, god! vivat, lord! vivat, to all!

i will somehow decimate the lack of warmth in me, duress, i tell you. i want to emancipate from this fag, which some refers to as 'waiting'.

you are my resplendent soul.
and i love you for it.

all the derision shall be lacked.

as for that, so long, my precious.

the awesomely fucking end.

; jakee.

cordon sanitaire of those within. (vEeeeErGeeEeENeetEEe)

2008-06-16T10:05:00.003+08:00

hello, fellow bloggers. today i awoke from my 45mins of sleep. boy, last night was all about driving cars and shooting old men with stupidly big shotgun.the world of PS3 rawks. (OH YEAH. LIKE WHAAA.)

my hands been itching since last night due to my allergies of wanting to blog about a superficial matter, which some people will think, 'oh, like daaaa. i`m sooo not totally in that. like whu`everrr.'

virginity. say it with me veeeeeeeeer-jiiiiiiiiiii-niiiiiiiii-tiiiiiiiiii. (not exaggerating.)

and so, virginity. *coughcough* to those yang terasa sudah ter *coughcough* baik tah betaubat. everyone has a virginity. it happens only once. you it had since you were born. so check tia, haha. but will lose it whenever you *coughcough* have SEX. (baie. HAHA. traffic light color.)

in order to know that you`re a virgin, a one-cell hymen must be present. yes. It`s thickness is only one-cell thick. so if you accidentally poke yourself when you`re in the toilet or your friend was poking you, but instead she poked down THERE, then BYEBYE, VIRGINITY. you won`t grow it back. which is so BOOHOO, to those yang nada virginity, except yang already married. (BLAAAAAAAH.)

some people thinks that wearing a condom (fahlooys. balloon.) will still keep the one-cell hymen intact. but, noooo. those people needs to farted in the face, mahn. i know this topic is a wee-bit to open, but wha`da hell, bish. my blog.

it`s all about poking it, baby.

-quote by jakee razak.

these are some ways you can lose your itsy bitsy little hymen =

1. friends. (the men)

obnoxious friend : yo, dawg. last night, i was high, yo.

the boring friend : yo, homie. i was high, too. we be hangin in the babes place.

the geek friend : hello, fellow friends. i can see you`re enjoying yourself. give me the story.

obnoxious friend : yo, son. it was tight, son. that girl. her curve, nice, son. got me drooling, son.

the boring friend : i didn`t wanna follow the shit bag, but hell, it was fun, yo. the girls won`t stop riding me yo.

obnoxious friend : one of them babes was still a virgin, and son, she was taaaaaayeeeeeet, son.
the boring friend : that`s the thing, yo. girls. our best remedy. for enjoyment.

the geek friend : so, how did it feel?

obnoxious friend : shit, son. what do you mean, son? it felt faaaaaaaineeeee, dawg.

the boring friend : wait. have you ever had SEX, yo?
(WAHAHA. traffic light color, again.)

the geek friend : noooo. like, daaaaa. (well, i just put that in to make it look funny.)

obnoxious friend : you must be shitting me, son. you are a disgrace to the male species, son. ain`t no white man, black man, chainese man, or what so ever man, act like a pussy.

the boring friend : yeah, yo. you pussy, yo. this bitch still a virgin, yo. he ain`t one of us. *middle finger.

the geek friend : but my momma will hit me if she knows that i go crashing with women.

obnoxious friend : screw your momma, son. my momma wants me to marry a whore. it`s all about giving, son. give yourself in and the pleasures yours.

the geek friend : *weeps.

and to be accepted in the community of those so-called 'yo, dawg. i'm high like shit, son' friends, he goes to the nearest prostitute centre. been given free condom, lost his virginity and celebrated with his new friends and a sore penis.

2. friends. (the bitches.)

the hottie : like o mai gawd. he so totally took me in, like *shrieks.

the sexy : really, like, oh * shrieks. like, me twooo. my man. was like so damn hot, like sizzling.

the wanna-be : wow. you girls are purrdy.

the hottie : like daaaa. we`re like the beautiful among the others. i mean, our toilet bowl is prettier than bush`s toilet bowl. (she ain`t so smart after all.)

the sexy : and our group is limited. like limited edition limited. (and here`s another dumbass)

the wanna-be : in order to join your group, i have to...

the hottie : lick some b*lls.

the sexy : we don`t take pure white sheets. i mean, pure sheets are sooo pure. (the hell?)

i can`t move on. bitch talking makes my braces ngilu.

3. friends. (the PoKLeNS)

pkln 1 : eHh, BuI. sEmAlaM aQu JuMPa BaBe LaWaa.

pkln 2 : vAnAr baA BuI? gILa, GiAN Qu mEnDaNGaR.

pkln 1 : baA, aQu BaWa KaMu JuMPa Ya. hOt vEraBIsH.

pkln 3 : inDa baiK, bAiK plAnG kAmI vUaT baRaNg bEfAEdAH.

pkln 1 : aPaKaN Qau aNe. bUkAnYa aPa. aNi sEkaJaP sAJa. suRuH Ya bAGi j0B TaRus, BaLeK.

pkln 2 : aWuEhh. gIaN kU DaH nI. laJuTaH. JaNgAnTaH dIBaWa nI. bIar Ya InDa BeKaWaN.

pkln 3 : baAaAa. iKuT kU nI. aSaL SaJa kAmU aDa bAwA cOnDoM. (bey-duuuh.)

4. the root of all evil. and entertainment. TV.

'look, sex education! American pie style! I laaaaaaaaaaikee.'

let`s just say, there are a lot of things that can make you lose your virginity.

it starts with girls going out with guys, wearing thick make up, measuring their breasts and shaving their pubic region. gets horny, and TADAAAAAA, look no more one-cell hymen.
the guys would just go online and go to a porn site where all britney spears, christina aguileras naked photos will be seen and masturbate yourself. wait. that`s considered semi-losing your virginity.

that`s all the crappy things i have to say for today.
enjoy your virginity, baby.

the awesomely horny end.

; jakee.

semi-male hormones equivalent to estestrons. pt1.

2008-06-15T13:20:00.002+08:00

as i said in my other posts, that my friend ze and i love to talk about kinky stuff about our boyfriends.

here`s the latest one :

(WARNING = to those with weak stomachs and skinzofrenzic, i assure you to leave the page and go on with your life. i mean it. *glares)

scene : school canteen.

damiit : aku gay.

pondanz : aku pun! *high five.

damiit : gila. *smacks pondanz`s ass.

pondanz : awwwww. shoooo chiyuuuut.

damiit : you`re shooo sexaay. mwaah.

bonza : EH, BAIE. SI PONDANZ AKU PUNYA KALIAH. *middle finger.

damiit : za, threesome wah, bui. ngapakan?

bonza : ahh....ehex. kirku kamu saja...bah eh. *smacks damiit`s and pondanz`s ass.

pondanz : bah, za. hold damiit. i`ll take his above, you take his below. *winks.

damiit : oh, baby. now you`ve done it. now i`m turned on.

bonza & pondanz : WHOA. *stares at damiit`s pants.

damiit : come to me, baby!

bonza : eh, bui. did you bring condoms?

damiit : adaaa. the bruneian flavour yooo.

pondanz : umm. is it the XLL, rambutan flavour? *smacks lips.

damiit : nooo. that is your favourite. mine`s the XXXXLLL gajilien and flavoured durian.

bonza : ahaha. -_-"

uncle jay : whot are you guys doing?

damiit : sir, your fly is open.

uncle jay : well, basically, fly open is a trend. it makes people, especially men, turn on much easier.

damiit : *kinks eyebrow.

pondanz : rock on, sir! *smacks uncle jay`s ass and kisses cheeks.

bonza : *eyes stare wide open.

TO BE CONTINUED...

the continuation will be published in ze`s blog.

it`s not the end, baby.

ps. HAHAHA.
pss. ze, this is so awesome. XD

his eyes cut through my artery.

2008-06-13T23:12:00.000+08:00

'i`m not gay. it`s just the inner me that says that i`m gay. and i, frankly, agree with it.'

- pete wentz.

i guess this blog needs my daily updates. but seriously, i abhor the fact that i`m still lifeless.

yesterday : no class! YEAH. we had this poetry competition and inter-house drama competition before and after break. so it was practically a full day.

poetry competition : it was somehow okay. i don`t have a passion in poetry. so i was mostly semi-dead at that time. most of the act was about romeo and juliet, which was just *rolls eyes. the little red riding hood was a *thumbs up. i laughed mostly when the grandmother fell. effin cool. and the rest was so and so.
the boyfriend, sii damiit was having his exams. so i was kinda down. hehe. *winkwink.

inter-house drama competition : it was AWESOME! laksamana was okay. i just don`t understand the candle part. g-qul was an awesome actor. *beat it.
hulubalang`s drama was also AWESOME, too! my ex slash cousin, mr.assistant aka perasan hensem was in that drama. i liked the part where they put out the fire. paloooys. it was DAMN FUNNY. but then, the messages were little.
the drama that i like the most panglima. their drama was EFFIN EFFIN EFFIN AWESOME AND COOLIOO! i mean, the message was so clear. their expression and imagination was so wild! the BESTBEST EVER! that i rate 10/10!
pahlawan`s was *coughcough. sorry to say, *sigh. no message. no understatement. so sorry, i don`t know. but the actors/actresses were good! seriously! except for auzee. *smirks.
but overall, i got to see the boyfriend!
ze and shar missed half of the drama cuz they were attending a forum. but at least they got to see our master jedi toyol on stage. (:

today : lame. lame. lame. i didn`t go to sleep cuz sibuk melayan ps3. HAHAHA. YES! I`m a ps3 addict! i played from 6pm til 7am kali. then, at 9am, i got add maths tuition. kusut jua ku tu. then, the whole day was just nothing.

i miss you, damiit.

the awesomely fucking end.

; jakee.

and all the guys are just screaming.

2008-06-11T22:59:00.001+08:00

s'agapo, agapi mou.

i wish for god to understand me.

profaners of this anger.

he maybe small, but he`s the man.

hey, tear catcher.

i have an ugly so-called fringe.

je t'adore, mon garçon.

imma miss you.

and yes, being emo changes everything.

loves.

the awesomely crappy end.

; jakee.

this is why me and ze love our boyfriends. =P

2008-06-11T22:15:00.000+08:00

my boyfriend.

sii damiit.

and i love him.

ze`s boyfriend.

bonza.

and she`s obsessed with him.

ze and i love to talk about them. cuz we love them. at random times, we think about them. cuz we love them. and at sometimes, we talk something kinky about them. cuz we effin love them.

and one of our kinky conversation is this :

bonza : thanks for the blowjob. *thumbs up.

damiit : thanks for gaying me up. *winks.

bonza : *lick lips.

damiit : i maybe small, but i`m a man.

bonza : *kinks eyebrow.

damiit : it maybe small, but it`ll whoa you. *points down THERE.

bonza : i never said it was small.

damiit : oh baby, don`t tease me. now i`m turned on. *that THING goes up.

bonza : whoa. *coughs.

that`s why we love you guys.

the awesomely fucking end.

; jakee.

ps. oh, ze. what would you do without them?
pps. shoooo chiyuuut. (;
ppps. i love you, ze.
pppps. i feel so gay typing lots of ps`s but it feel cool.

i saw a naked santa just now.

2008-06-10T19:24:00.002+08:00

hello fellow bloggers.
and yes, today i will use simple english as i am kinda osentatious with someones caricature in my head.

update. update. update.

i love you, damit.

today : our class, my beloved MA5E were passing by the pu2 classrooms. and when we came upon our master jedi toyol`s class, he wasn`t there. so we moved on to our class. then, out of the bloom, our master came from the corner.
so it`s like this domino thing. ze and shar were the first to laugh, then the guys and me. from the back to front. ben was nudging me, saying toyol.
i said out our master`s name and hazwan was 'shhh. tedangar ya karang.' and i`m 'oh. ya tau dah.'
it was so funny!
i mean, i didn`t know the whole class knew about it. i thought it was between the girls only.
before that, our chemistry teacher was absent. she`s pregnant, and preggers are often busy with their stuff. so chemistry was a free period and i was with alif aka the gigglerthe whole period. ben thought that i was having a thing for alif cuz i was touching his hair. but i said that in order for me to like alif, alif has to be abit more masculine-like. not saying he`s too feminine. but he`s alif, my gay friend. (:

speaking of absent, sii damiit was absent, too. :( that totally broke my heart. it was a devastating day. so slow and sleepy. so i resorted to cooteo, the beautiful caricature, but then, the heart does not beat that much as much as it beats for sii damiit.

ieffinloveyou.

as for the rest of the afternoon, i overslept. was suppose to rest my eyes from two to three. but i woke up at four. physics tuition was cancelled again. at least, i have enough time to finish my overdue bio homework.

well, that`s todays update.

THE AWESOMELY FUCKING END.

; jakee.

'i maybe small, but i`m a man.' (;

2008-06-10T00:16:00.001+08:00

my veritable boyfriend drove himself to school today.

you`re so mature now.
=')

i love you.

; jakee.

i found his tests papers. i love you. (:

2008-06-09T04:30:00.002+08:00

i guess i`m saying this in a bravado way, but i don`t think this will revamp anybody`s disorders.

you make me so effin inane towards you.
i love you.
(;

these few days kept be awake during the early nights. i just can`t stop thinking of you. it`s rather clandestine, yes. i try to not deceit myself of the feeling, that somehow emerged by itself.

tis is a fait accompli. it`s a fag but i have to persist with it.

i am masochistic. i know it`s rather sad, since i am a cryptic person. it`s a tyranny, keeping every absurd thing to myself, cutting loose my skin, and letting red blood pour out.

i'll prattle everything about you. from your perfection to faults. repugnant is a sin.

I wished that we met in a cabaret. it would had been so succulent, disconsteous toward every other being, besides the two of us. if there even is an US. i will never evict myself from this incoherency life.

niggle me, i say. it won`t work. i resent true facts. i forgot to allude that i am semi-dead by now.

yes. i know i`m pathetic. but at the same time, stunning. that goes for my babes, too.

i am very forion with him. myself. everybody. i don`t think my heart can be resurent. even after broken into thousands of pieces.

i love you, oh you.

the unawesome fucking end.

; jakee.